First infatuation - how old were you?

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i've never understood this kind of behavior in children. I mean, i know that many children do have a sense of sexuality. Maybe i'm in the minority here, but i never had a single romantic or sexual thought until age 12. Not even a grade-school crush. I still don't understand how little kids can have crushes, while at the same time thinking the other sex is icky or has cooties. (By contrast, i throughly believed in the existence of cooties in boys until I was 12!) Are these young crushes simply based on cute looks and shared interest, a type of practice for adult feelings, or are 6 year olds having sexual thoughts towards their classmates? Or is it simply innocent curiousity about the body, like when kids play doctor?

I think in pre-teens there's nothing sexual about it.

Might want to point out when i speak of this second grade crush that requested a strip-tease...I had breasts. And not the kind you get from being chunky, (I was normal size) I mean real ones. I was a B cup....and would start my period the next year in the third grade, so the boys may have been a bit more fascinated with *my* body than the other girls.

14.

I fancied her, and wanted to get to know her, but she was shy to talk to me because I would draw a crowd if I would approach her.

All because I told her I fancied her, and it somehow got out. I wouldn't of had a chance with her anyways.

I fancy someone else now, but I won't bother telling them, because there's no point. It might get out again, and all that moan and mockery. As If I'll go out with her anyways.

I never thought anyone had cooties or were 'icky' myself. My crush was probably based out of nothing, all I knew was that I liked that girl for some reason... I've also always felt years ahead of myself.

I first started seriously liking girls the latter half of 1995 when I was about 10-11 years old. I'm not sure how much I literally wanted to sex them, but I knew I wouldn't have minded getting them naked.

I guess it was 5th grade. Her name is Amanda, I still see her occasionally, and I still think she is really amazing. In 8th grade, at Music Camp, there was this girl I fell hard for. She was the first girl I danced with and I asked her out, but, of course, she had a boyfriend. Gack!

I think this kind of behavoir happens when young children have a much older sibling, usually a brother, that tells that about sexual stuff. I used to work around 100's of kids from age 2 & up and I observed that happening. It can also happen when the parents lack modesty as I know of someone who used to have sex in front of their toddler and they son was a perv by 4.

I got my first crush when I was 5 years old. I didn't get my first girlfriend until I was 17, though.

Tim

Yes. about 11. Several girls, all dreadful failures. I was delusional in thinking that any of the girls I was interested in liked me or even acknowledged my presence. It sucks so much. I just forget about things and move on. As I am so introverted and clumsy, it makes things really difficult. I get nervous around girls, and go into crisis mode, shrinking into the corner. Eye contact
or even close proximity with anyone I do not know, especially at close range makes me really introverted while the presence is still there. It is even worse with girls that I like.

Yes. about 11. Several girls, all dreadful failures. I was delusional in thinking that any of the girls I was interested in liked me or even acknowledged my presence. It sucks so much. I just forget about things and move on. As I am so introverted and clumsy, it makes things really difficult. I get nervous around girls, and go into crisis mode, shrinking into the corner. Eye contact
or even close proximity with anyone I do not know, especially at close range makes me really introverted while the presence is still there. It is even worse with girls that I like.

When I was very little (in kindergarten, through about 3rd grade) I was really into girls, in fact I guess you could say I was obsessed with them. I thought they were really cute and chased after them on the playground (It almost makes me crack up thinking of me as a little kid already checking out the girls). This in turn led to all sorts of problems. For one thing the girls complained about my chasing them, and also I was teased by the other boys. I didn't understand what was wrong, which led to me getting upset, and this together with my rather short temper and tendency to aggression at the time led to me being expelled from several schools.

It's too long ago to remember whether my "attraction" to girls that I felt as a little kid was similar to the attraction I feel now after puberty. I definitely didn't know anything about sex at the time, and didn't show any overtly sexual behavior (like getting naked in front of girls or trying to hump them). I'm also pretty sure I didn't get "hard" from looking at the girls, as I remember innocently asking my parents about it when I discovered that bodily function. If I had noticed a connection between that and the girl-chasing, which I had been led to believe was bad, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have said anything.

I do have a friend, though, who says that he has been attracted to girls since elementary school, without the big gap that I experienced. When I first heard that it was almost eerie, as he's similar to me in quite some other ways. He thought that it is very common to be interested that early, but I don't think it is.

As a side note, I have sometimes wondered whether my early attraction has shaped my current attitude and preferences in regards to girls.

I find that my brain automatically thinks "attraction" or "sex partner" or else "uninterested" when I see a girl--unlike many guys I know, I have never had a good friend of the opposite sex. I also don't see it desirable to be "platonic" friends for awhile and then become boyfriend/girlfriend--I need the feeling of attraction from the start. I could see how this idea that girls can only be sexual/romantic partners and not just friends could come from the fact that I interacted differently with boys and girls from when I first knew what they were.

This is in many ways a "chicken and egg" question though--what came first, my brain's highly sex-typed way of interacting, or the different social experience with the two sexes. It could be that my early interactions were shaped by my brain wiring, and then this was reinforced when the adults seemed to say my approaching girls (but not boys) was "forbidden".

As a scientist, I have also wondered how my brain "knew" to assign different emotions toward boys and girls, given that for neither were there obvious secondary sex traits visible. Of course I was told verbally there were categories called "boys" and "girls", I knew I was a boy, and saw that they were dressed differently. However, adult sexual attraction at least is not a conscious thing--it's triggered by biologically relevant, evolutionarily selected sexual cues rather than by words. Someone could take a person whose body appears clearly male and insist that he be called a girl all day, and it wouldn't make me attracted.

I was the same way with eye contact around my first crush. That's when i first noticed i had a problem with eye contact. i thought he was so beautiful, i couldn't look him in the eye. his eyes would burn me or see my soul or something. it's never been that bad with anyone else. it was really wierd. i'm better with eye contact around people i know, but not guys i'm attracted too.

What does "infatuation" mean?

It's like a crush, when you are sort of obsessed with someone because you find him or her really attractive.