Loneliness

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Do you have any autism society/groups in your area?

I don't have any Asperger/autism groups in my area, unfortunately. I'm the only female Aspergian [that I know of] at my school.
Here's a virtual hug for AspeOtaku:

Isn't it strange how we are hypersensitive to touch but yet still need hugs sometimes. I involuntarily draw back from an unexpected touch, even from someone i love, but sometimes if i am sad a hug is the best thing ever.
so sorry, hope you get a nonvirtual hug from somewhere too. But til then,

((hugs))

Yep, I can't stand it when people touch me, but I love hugs and cuddling. We're paradoxes!

I've had to drop out of school because of my illness (whatever it is - one of the doctors suggested aspergers) and I'm very wary of talking to people on Facebook. So yeah, I'm pretty lonely.

I have no one but my father, sister, and mother to talk to. I spend all day reading books and watching things on Netflix. The only social interaction I have is when my dad asks me what I want for dinner.

So...ESCAPISM. I live in another world all the time. I actually LIVE in my fantasies and it's my grades. I think I'm actually pretty smart. In fact, for someone who never pays attention and doesn't study, I think I must be brilliant to have passed all my exams and received admission at university.

I want to get out of that world though and into the present so that I can actually be successful and realize my potential. Anyone know what I'm talking about?

Since I'm a fantasy writer, I'm constantly half in half out of many different worlds. If you'd like to chat, PegasusBaby [I love your username, by the way], feel free to pm me.

I feel weird about casually hugging my parents.
That's all I have to say right now.

I feel the same way. I have good parents and i love them a lot. But i have sort of an aversion to hugging them. They will sometimes give me hugs and i hug them back because their feelings would be hurt if i didn't. But i try to avoid it. I have no idea why i feel that way, but i do.

Some ppl can hug me and it is ok; others i have a hard time with. The cousins on my dad's side of the family always hug each other when we get together because we only see each other about once or twice a year. It feels very natural and i like to get hugs from them. And a few ppl on my hubby's side of the family who will just come up to me and hug me--a genuine hug because they like me and they are a touchy huggy person, not awkward and they take the initiative. I don't mind that. What i can't stand are the awkward hugs when the person is kind of like "do you want a hug?" What am i supposed to say, "oh heck no!" ??? that would hurt their feelings. Which is probably why i don't like to hug my parents because they are always tentative about it. If someone hugs me i will usually respond, i just have a lot of awkwardness initiating it. (Except if i have a bad history with the person, i can't stand to be touched by them at all, let alone hugged. Then if it is a hugging situation i avoid getting close to them; or if i can't avoid it, i will just stand there and hope they hurry up and get it over with. )

Feeling lonely right now. I wish I had someone to talk to IRL, but it's very late at night.
Hmm, I don't know what I would say anyway. I don't know who I could talk to other than my mom or dad, even by day.

What would you talk about if you felt lonely and had someone to keep you company?

You can talk to me if you want.
I would probably talk about things I like and metaphysical and spiritual and magical concepts.

I guess I'm isolating myself again, but I feel like I would be a burden to anyone.
You want to hear of things that I did in the forest in front of the house?

Sure, I love forests!

Well ok...

There's part of the forest that's protected for conservation, but as a teenager I went in there to explore. The tree/plant density in there was very high and some of the plants had sharp leaves and it was dark in some spots.
There were some young trees, a bit thicker than a bottle and I climbed on them high enough for them to bend, and traveled from tree to tree that way.

There are quite a few craters in the ground in the forest and some kind of natural pond.
There's something I call "the mushroom" which is just some little roof thing, but it reminds me of a mushroom.
And here's something I call "the abyss", but it's not very deep in some parts, maybe the height of the average person. But in some other spots it's like 5 meters deep.
I used to be there more often in the past and balance over it on some logs like on a bridge.

I like to find new paths in the forest and create a mental map. I actually did that last summer.

Wow! That sounds like such a neat and mysterious forest! Back when I lived in the country, my house was surrounded by forest on all sides except the front. Ah, nostalgia...

I don't feel lonely anymore. Thank you.

You're welcome! I seem to have an intuitive knack for cheering people up and helping them feel better!