Losing my ability to date women I'm not attracted to

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I like meringue too, although my favorite dance is merengue. (Side note: whipped egg whites with sugar are spelled "meringue", while a lively Latin dance is spelled "merengue".)

Anyway, just wanted to clarify what exactly I meant by "losing my ability to date women I'm not attracted to". Let's backtrack to year 2002, when I made my first attempt at dating. A girl in my class started talking to me, and mentioned a place she wanted to visit. So I asked her out. Much to my surprise, she said yes! So a week or so later, we went there. I was feeling happy beyond belief, "knowing" that she liked me. I did everything a boyfriend would do, such as buy her lunch, help her with stuff, or just sit and talk to her, and enjoyed every minute of it. Now, I wasn't attracted to her, and she wasn't even my physical type, but since in my mind, it was either her or being alone, I chose her. Now, I found out two months later that she didn't like me: I went with her to a college dance, and when I tried to dance close with her, she backed away. But prior to me finding out, I was enjoying every moment of my "relationship" (that was really friend zone), despite not being attracted to her.

Now, let's return to 2012. During much of the last ten years, I was perfectly able to sustain a relationship with girls I didn't find attractive, and what was even better is that they actually liked me, enough to dance close and a lot more. But in the last two years, I found myself losing that ability. I had situations when I met a girl who showed interest in me, and if I didn't think she looked good, I'd just make a graceful exit. Usually by never asking her phone number in the first place, or if I did it due to beer goggles or an emotional high from the party atmosphere, by not calling after the first date (an act somewhat rude but well-tolerated in the NT community). Five years ago, I'd have pursued a relationship with those girls. Now, it just doesn't seem worthwhile, since my sexual cravings hit their lowest level in history. Granted, I won't refuse it if a girl I don't find attractive starts kissing me in a club, but a relationship with the same person no longer seems worth the responsibility it requires, even though I lose out on the sex.

Having said all that, I'm still not interested in settling down, let alone getting married. All this really seems more about the cost/benefit ratio than anything more "lofty". Plus, I can't help but be concerned about how I will introduce to friends and family when the time comes.