Obsessiveness and AS? Could it develop into stalking?

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All of my biggest problems come from obsessing over a boy. If it's not one, then it's another. I don't necessarily follow you and text and call constantly, but it's nice to talk once a week. I'm not allowed to go outside alot because my mom is worried all the time, so I don't meet many people. Usually if I have a boyfriend my main concern is that he visits me. Also to have an actual date, not just going to a house and making out because I've only been on two dates in my life. I feel used when people do this and then break up with me

My old bf with AS stalked me, and I was flattered and really enjoyed it. He did it because our parents and the school didn't approve of our relationship. I felt bad though that he didn't go home one night and slept outside my window. I couldn't let him in because my mom is a light sleeper. I didn't go to his house because I didn't want to get in serious trouble. He took his parents car once and drove over to my house. He got in alot of trouble for that. He'd also take off and come near my house and his parents would call the police who would take him home. Unfortunatley when he kept doing it they then sent him to juvenile detention for a few days.

I met a boy while at a water park and my friend had convinced me that we should flirt and play around with him. We held hands a really long time because neither of us let go. Then he followed me everywhere, and I thought it was fun and jokingly I'd try to get away, but he usually found me. He talked about some 80's show called Red Dwarf, which I rudely told him that I wasn't interested in hearing about. We discussed people in the area, and I asked him his birthday ( I'm extremely interested in astrology) He spoke rather formally, which I liked as I do the same at times. He also liked dress clothes, which I also like. he broke up with me because his parents didn't approve of me being 3 years older than him. Months later I added him on facebook and commented on a post where he said somebody suggested he had AS and his brothers teased him about it. I told him my diagnosis and he'd respond back, but later deleted me. I thought it was a really interesting comment for him to make because I had wondered if he may have it before he ever posted that.

One of my biggest fears is that I will meet someone who won't tell me if they don't want me talking to them, and will expect me to just "get the message" by their silence, and that I will be accused of stalking.

This is another reason I feel like I can only date other Aspies, because I feel less likely to get the "silent treatment" from them.

I hate the silent treatment. I like people to just say to my face, "I don't want to be your friend" It makes things a lot easier and saves time.
If they're ignorant enough to not send me a clear message, then I'll be ignorant and keep trying to talk to them.

With me if someone never answers, I just assume they don't like me and must not want me so I stop. They can just IM me if they want to chat or PM me or whatever. I'm afraid of being a stalker and getting accused of harrassment just because I didn't know the person didn't want me.

When I was 14 I got obsessed with my cousin's next door neighbours, which was a young couple with a baby. I fancied the man, and got a little obsessed with the woman - but NOT fancy!! ! I just admired her because she was pretty and confident and was jealous of her because of her husband. But the obsession grew and was becoming a pain to everyone, even to myself. It even affected school life, because I used to write things about the obsession in a little notebook, and one day I brought into school and was writing something in it, when one of the boys in my class saw and asked to have a look in it. I let him, because I was so obsessed that I wanted everyone to know. The book got passed round to a lot of the boys and a few girls, and some thought I was ''sad'', others thought it was funny. One or two even said it was cool. Som of the girls knew of this man, and knew he was married and said so. I said ''I know but I still fancy him''.
It became a fixation, and an embarrassment because soon the people I was obsessed with quickly found out that I existed and that I fancied them, and it got really out of hand. I used to drag m 5-year-old cousin out with my just so I can have someone to sit with outside their house and wait if one of them would come out and notice me. My other cousin (who lived next door to them) was 15, and used to get really cross when I hanged about in their street. I found out everything about them, and I was lacking effort in my school work because I was just too deeply obsessed with these people. I even started following them around at a funfair once, and they knew I was following them and asked me why. But I was so delighted when they asked me, and I ran to my 5-year-old cousin's house to tell him that I spoke to them. (I had got him obsessed with them too, which was bad of me because I was old enough to know not to get small children involved).
But that wasn't the worst thing I ever done. The worst thing was this: the bloke was self-employed cleaning windows, and I got one of his cards from a friend who had her windows cleaned by him, and it had his number on. So one night I rang him on his mobile, but when he answered I didn't say anything. When he hung up I rang again and again, until his wife answered and found out it was me. She was a rough cockney and started having a go at me - which usually I would be very sensitive to - but I was so obsessed with them that I was enjoying her rantings. But, half an hour after that, they came knocking at my door. I don't know how they got my address, but they were there on my doorstep, at half 11 at night. My mum was rushed out of bed and we both stood speaking to them at the door, getting me to say sorry and all that. Oh my god - what the hell was I like?! !

But as I got to about 16 or 17, the obsession died down, and I soon got over them. Now I'm 20, I don't think of them ever (apart from when I was writing this post). I am obsessed with other men now who are more descent, and the good thing about that is I don't stalk them or even let them know I fancy them. So I'm not embarrassing myself anymore - I just keep them to myself. I don't think it's an obsession as such, I just think it's a normal crush. I try to focus an obsession onto things like the weather, because it's not as stupid as going around stalking people. I've learnt from the first obsession I had that it's very unsociable to stalk 2 random people.