I want to give up on love but can't

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I thought Outrider is 19.

He's probably "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" on WP, and at accelerating pace.

Outrider, you would probably end up as an egg after few years.

^ Probably.

I agree it's just an illusion, but that's still a pessimistic way of looking at it.

So, a 10 year strong relationship, where both people reveal their darkest secrets and their innermost selves to the other person, and it could be broken up and worth absolutely nothing the very next day, as if it never happened at all?

I don't think so.

If anything most relationships longer than at least one year don't just end abruptly unless the person doing the dumping is an inconsiderate fool, otherwise it usually takes some slowly edging out of it before things are officially over.

I've been told when it comes to having sex with someone, even if the deed was done many years ago, it's something that you can never forget.

Same goes for breaking up with an ex.

You and them had a 'thing' and it's always going to be a real fact in the back of your minds, or something or other like that.

Emotional security exists when one has invested into a relationship long enough.

There comes a point where you couldn't just dump them even if you tried.

I guess the Tupac quote really is true:

"The most expensive thing in the world is trust. It can take years to earn and a matter of seconds to lose."

EVERYONE ELSE:

Shucks, guys. Thanks!

It feels like a double-edged sword though, a lot of the time.

All this wisdom and I can't use it, I can barely even do simple tasks like hold down a simple job or even leave the house without feeling a crippling sense of anxiety.

All this wisdom 'beyond my years' and no one else can see it unless they really get to know me, in fact a lot of the time I only ever felt I came across as stupid or annoying to others in high school sometimes.

I guess maybe it's not as hidden as I thought it was, as my family praise me for my maturity and I have friends that tell me I'm 'easy to talk to' and one even said I'm her 'go to guy' for 'deep and meaningful conversation'.

I get told by family I'd make a good boyfriend to a nice girl.

It sucks then if I can be because I just never have the chance to show it.

I don't even really know how I turned out this way.

Genetics?

I guess I've just spent so much time alone, I've managed to use the internet to research social skills and how the human mind works as much as possible.

Also, from 9th to 12th grade in high school I went to great lengths to be socially successful. Even if I feel like it was an absolute failure, I learned from my mistakes through trial and error, and have found a lot of what I learn online about human interaction was definitely the case in the past and/or can be applied to future interactions.