Hollywood_Guy wrote:
sly279 wrote:
Islam is the same god. He wants to punish people, if people kill themslves they escape his punishment. God hates me that’s why he sent me here with such contradictions as punishment. He made me a social people person then made it so I’d never be able to fulfill those needs by making me defective so I’d never be good enough for any woman.
So I live alone secluded away from people slowly dying inside as god wanted. I must been a Nazi in past life or some other horrible person.
I have same feelings about God. I didn't stop believing in him, but I don't think that he is a loving, good God anymore. It sucks because everyone tells me I need to still accept God no matter what, and these same people seem to not show any empathy because they'll all dress it up in positive speaking. Now I think he sounds like a kind of universal dictator, entrapping us between just living here, worshiping in his manner (manor) for eternity or being punished in disgusting torment for eternity. I don't "choose" to be damned to Hell or suffer for eternity, it's not really my fault that the system is corrupted and it can harder to function as a result. You can only do so much in such a setup.
I've been there. And people telling you just to have more faith does not help... at all.
I'm still a Christian. I thing I've noticed is that even though some people are rubbish at being caring there's things about Christianity that I totally agree with. The basics... love your neighbour and so on. If people would stop thinking about building their own materialistic little bubbles and actually reach out to others the world would be a better place. So my rationale is that I can't control how others apply their faith and what they do. I am responsible for how I act and I'm going to keep at it. I'm going to try my best to be the kind of person that makes the world a better place and just forget about all the people who made me feel disillusioned.
Things have changed for me. I've moved. I made new friends and they seem to be quite positive people. It's been a horrible road to get here, but I'm in a good place now mentally and locationwise.
I sometimes feel a bit put out... Why did it have to take so long for me to find my niche.? I've been struggling for years and years. But if I take a positive spin on it, all that pain I went through has made me a more empathetic and understanding person. I don't believe in pre-destination or anything like that. I don't believe anyone's life is meant to happen a certain way. I'm just Trying now to have a positive outlook and draw some wisdom from the bad experiences I had and use that to move forward.
Still single. Met someone recently who seemed ideal for me... nd me for him. He seemed to really like me. But he turns out to be commitment phobic so that didn't work. I don't think I'm going to ever manage this romance thing, but I've just got to work with the life of got and try and find happiness in what I've got.