The reason I stopped looking for awhile.

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I have a great girl now. But a few years ago I was really feeling down. I knew I could not fix my AS and this is how I would be. I was lonely. I also was not looking for anyone.

The reason I was not looking was I knew because of my AS, I would come off as creepy and not right. I also knew I would not read the social cues, ect right and do something to put off them off.

I would rather not do anything and have them not think I was strange then show them I was off.

Anyone else ever felt the same?

You saying that when you stop looking for a lady like picking them up helps you to get someone?

I think my situation right now is what you originally experienced. I feel bad about it. I'm only 21 and I should act right now before too late.

Me meeting the girl I am with now had nothing to do with when I was feeling down.

I am saying the reason I was not looking was I knew my AS would make me come off as strange and I would get rejected, so why bother.

So what your advice for young guy like me to breakthrough this issue so women won't see me in bad way concluding aspieness?

There's that saying that love comes knocking when you least expect it.
I've found it to be rather true. Finding a girl doesn't mean you'll fall in love.
People with good chemistry together seem to have a way of finding each other. But to do that you have to go out more or interact with others. You don't have to be looking, you just have to be around other people.

Well that's part of the issue. No matter how much I work on myself learn social skills, ect, I still gave off that "aspie" vibe so I'd get friend zoned.

Thing is, if you repeat the same behaviour that got you friend zoned you are not using your experience to its best advantage. It doesn't help to dwell on things but at least looking over things that were said or the wording of things, as well as some body language that might have instigated the zoning could help. Not that you need to do that, as you have a girlfriend now just saying.

P.S. To answer your question: Yes I did feel the same, for many many years. It got better after my early 20's.

Your girlfriend is gonna kill you when she sees this.
Honestly though don't beat yourself up about what could have happened, focus on what is happening here and now.

All those negitive feelings happened before I met my girlfriend. I'm in a much better place now. I wa just wondering if anyone else with AS felt the same way. Not even trying because you knew the AS would get in the way no matter how much you tryed.

Yes, I am like this, KenM (and howdy, neighbor, from Boston!).

I have given up trying (for now) because I was tired of hurting people and of hurting myself, since the dating thing seemed to be like throwing myself against a brick wall, again and again, expecting it to yield or give up its secrets of impermeability.

I'm fortunate that people still try to engage me, but I get nervous and cut it off (or else I do nothing because I feel nothing for them).

It's a combination of this and my looks that keep me from looking anymore. In fact I'm to the point where I'm almost apathetic about it. Almost. What will usually happen now is, I'll find a girl that I find attractive and then in like 5 seconds I end up not caring. However, I do like a girl now but she lives so far away she might as well not even exist.

I've generally felt like I'm just too unique, too unlike anyone else, and that intuitive relatability is the bonding glue of relationships - something that clearly wasn't on my side.

I also had the same feeling of being seen as anything from less than (mediocre achievements), creepy because of facial expressions that work but not in the full conventional sense, demeanor that while not socially inappropriate added up to telling people at a minimum that I was different and at worst it would like something was 'wrong' about me. I also found that what I hated far more than being scorned by women was going out on dates constantly with girls who I just didn't feel it with and having to then be the one to try to find the most mild and impersonal way to break it to them. The last part made dating as appealing an exercise as going to the dentist to get my teeth drilled.

I'm still on a technical break from dating or trying. I'd come to the sense that the universe knows my needs and will take care of me but, if my impulses should act up and make me wonder again if I should give something like Match.com a try I may go for it. Now more than ever my friends have left the state, those who are still local are rarely free as they work nights on weekends, and self-development in my spare time, while it isn't running aground, still feels like its missing something. I may end up signing up for something again, I may also just as readily end up having luck in the next few months - I can never really be certain with the way my life seems to work.

I feel the same way, there was was this guy who flirted with me and couldn't get his eyes off me. The only problem was that I didn't make much eye contact with him. I did look at him in the eyes for some time but I couldn't bear looking into his eyes. He got the wrong message that I didn't like him when I actually did. I couldn't tell you how happy I was with him until he no longer wanted anything with me. I feel like I'm too different for a "normal" guy to handle me.
I'm too shy, quiet, and puzzled to know what to say to please someone. I kind of gave up looking for love, although sometimes I try, but I do want it. I'm not completely happy.

I felt kind of like that before I got in my 1st relationship. I didn't want a relationship because i figured I was too f#cked-up in the head for anyone to actually like me.