Jumbled thoughts about women and dating

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This doesn't seem normal, but it seems as though when other people in college interact with females, it's either being social, checking out cool things on each other's laptops, or even the old high school horse play shenanigans.

Me, I can hardly keep a steady conversation without running out of ideas when they're rarely hanging with me (unless there's a common topic and they start up the convo).

It just feels like this barrier of trying to just ask someone out is so difficult, and yet i'm trying too hard by not trying at all. It's been affecting me mentally as well, i've noticed that i've been losing my temper more often over little things that aren't related to dating or even just socializing with women, like making a mistake on homework or dropping something on the ground.

I was seeing someone about my anxiety issues, but therapy only slightly works. If i'm gonna find someone, I'm either going to get help from my peers to at least put me in a starting point (if it's bad, who cares, better than moping around) or I'll do it myself. Starting by loving myself is something that I have no clue how to even start; these constant thoughts about being alone and wanting to throw something at couples in public out of spite of envy fills my head so goddamn much when i'm not busy with people that it knocks out the good thoughts and clouds my head!

I think I may be going insane. If I can't perform tasks because of spiking anxiety, or learn to deal with couples in public, then I have no clue what to do.

a book that helped me with my self-esteem is "the self-esteem companion" by McKay, fanning, et al. A more didactic approach is taken in "the self-esteem workbook" by schiraldi. I think you are right that you must get that straightened out before you can have a relationship. as for small talk, I didn't learn that 'til I was 50. a good book on that is, "the fine art of small talk" by debra fine. I don't think these books will magically get you across the finish line, but are a decent starting place.

once you start to make progress, you may find you have less anger. when you are angry at couples, remind yourself that they are not the problem, and you're dealing with the problem.

just saw this website on another post. it's free, written by someone with autism, and may help.

www.improveyoursocialskills.com

looks like something worth it, except you have to pay to see the good stuff.