Tsproggy wrote:
Only crush I've ever seriously had was a girl I met when I moved to Nevada and went to middleschool and highschool with. I only knew her because I was introduced to her via this guy I knew who became my 1 friend for a long time until recently. Her name is Caitlyn, she's 5 foot nothing, brown eyes, tan skin, great smile, and someone who didn't think I was a pathetic nerd.
Went through school oblivious as I do, I would do nice things for her because I enjoyed talking to her, being around her, she was overall pleasant, which was very difficult for me being afraid of women, having social anxiety, and sucking at everything social in general. Got into highschool, she became a cheerleader and still stuck around with me which I found amazing as everyone else I knew ditched me for football or other friends. Met other girls through her that she would introduce me to, equally as nice and they would always tease me saying that she liked me.
But I've been messed with by women ALOT, I figured they just wanted to see if they could get me to make a move or do something embarrassing so I never did anything. Highschool was way too much for me after awhile with all the people, another school got merged with ours and I couldn't breathe walking through the hallways, I was literally chest to chest with other students trying to get from one class to another it was brutal on me. I almost passed out a few times (anxiety). Long story short, I dropped out of highschool, got all this training and my G.E.D. to make up for it, she becomes friends with my sister, comes over and throws herself at me *sits on my lap in nothing but lingere stroking my head and trying to eat my ear or something >.>* and I'm sitting in my chair playing Xbox (1st one) trying not to freak out so I just continue playing games and she gets upset. Next thing you know she's married to a guy who has my same name whom she met in the military and haven't heard from her since.
Immensely unfortunate, that's all I can say.
At least you got a bit of game, even when you think you don't, otherwise she wouldn't sit on your lap stroking the freaking hell out of you.
Funny how nerves can turn your life completely against you.