I feel like I should give up because I am not allowed for a relationship, let alone have my own standards for one. As a man, I feel very discouraged, I even think women are undeniably treated better by society than men. I wish something can be done to "fix" these, like that will ever happen. I feel jealous of all the girls who can afford to be picky.
I wish I had a job and a car, but the most serious work I got is from volunteering. I think I should die because it's hard for me to even get the process started. Because of my other disability, I often realize I have more challenges to overcome than I think.