Aspies:what were you like in high school

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To the OP and what is your current situation?

Why did you ask this question in the first place?

I assume you are currently in HS yourself?

Just wondering....

i tried my best to hide in plain sight, and mostly succeeded. i was in the high school pep band, but spoke to nobody and nobody spoke to me. it was an oddly ironic and solitary experience, to be so alone among so many other people. i had one bully who for some strange reason saw [with amazing alacrity] the error of his ways, and thereafter [although he didn't wish to be my friend] he took pains to be as nice to me as he knew how, for the rest of the time i was in high school. maybe that was an object lesson in how the juvenile brain's frontal lobes often come on line relatively late in the game. anyways, he later became a wealthy republican businessman and politician.

i was a studious loner, i took voluminous notes in a very tiny handwritten font, on whatever little scraps of paper i could find, as i was too disorganized to remember to bring a binder to class. when i did remember to bring a peachee to class, it was covered with my scatalogical scribblings expressing the anger i had at the time, over the way other students had such effortless social success and how they were able to make their way in the world so easily compared to myself at the time. i was the only junior/senior i could tell, that didn't have a driver's license or vehicle, so in the school buses i was the only junior/senior. the only people who i could get to chat with, were the adults, in the form of custodians/security officers and teachers. i wondered what was wrong with the other students that they couldn't be friendly with me like the adults.

in PE, since i totally lacked an athletic bone in my body, and could not dribble or throw or catch a ball to save my life, i was often assigned to the office to do clerical work. i got some satisfaction from filling out the disciplinary paperwork for some of the bullies who misbehaved around the teachers. it beat the hell out of having to take off my shirt to expose my scrawny self, in the game of "shirts versus skins" - that was such an excruciatingly mortifying and ego-deflating soul crusher of an experience as any diabolically compassion-numb school athletic director could devise. it was worse even, that slaughterball [a more sadistic version of dodge ball].

at my high school graduation, i was in the band so most of it i was up on the stage among my bandmates playing "pomp and circumstance" over and over. it got my mind off of my embarrassing solitude. my parents insisted that i attend the graduation ceremony, even though they would not be attending. to this day, i don't get why it was so important for them that i attend this lonely affair. anyways, i clumsily went through the motions of moving my cap tassel from one side to the other [can't remember which], and when it was finished i just got up out of my seat, walked outside and waited for my mom to pick me up. i remember the next day i had a very odd feeling when i returned to the school to fill out some paperwork for the local Division of Vocational Rehabilitation so i could be placed in vocational training. it felt odd because just the day before i had been an adult student and now here i was as an emancipated adult no longer subject to the disciplinary whims of the adult school officialdom. i sensed that i had passed some invisible rubicon, never to return.

here is an example of my ODD.

at the first high school i went to:

i had a stamp that had my name inscribed on it (in a circular fashion with the word "esquire" added to the end of my name, and it also said "common seal" in the center of the stamp), and i had a stamp pad that was always fully inked. when i prepared my papers that were required to be completed in the class, i always loudly stamped them with my name, and the teacher became aware that it was disrupting the class because they laughed at my behavior as i stamped my work.

usually the class was silent and everyone was working on the exercise, and then they were roused by the sound of me stamping my work (rather than just signing my name). it was always a "bang bang"! ! sound, and the first bang was me thumping the stamp onto the inkpad, and the second bang was stamping the inked stamp onto my paper. if there were 4 pages for example, then it went "bang bang" (page 1), "bang bang" (page 2), "bang bang" (page 3), and "bang bang" (page 4).

anyway, i was ordered by the teacher to give him my stamp, but it was not his stamp so i declined.
he tried to seize my stamp, and then all hell broke loose and i was sent back to the psychiatric unit.

actually i am sick of describing the situation now so i will end here.

High school was absolutely forgettable.

Still in high school today, and I'm still a very unsocial person. Luckily for me, most people seem to be understanding that I'm a quiet person, and I suspect some might know I've got Asperger's, or at least something different about me.

Unfortunately though, it's quite obvious that there are some that laugh at me behind my back, I'm not sure whether it's because of my SpongeBob obsession, because they consider me "weird", or because I'm always quiet. I'm going to university in September, and I'm hoping things will be a lot better there.

I was extremely shy and I just let people walk all over me. I didn't really care how I looked, especially in middle school. It wasn't until grade 12 that I started to really change. I didn't really take my future seriously. I wish I tried harder in school.

Well i would not open my mouth only till i passed out school.

I was so very quite that everyone was puzzled whether something was wrong with me, the domestic voilence in my house was at peak during those times

And every night i was beaten black and blue with belts, sticks etc....so i was constantly living in fear. There were some boys who used to take physical advantage of me and girls would just ignore me.

I had no friends in school and now on Facebook when i see classmates reunions and parties i feel terrible.

When i reached college i had one friend who was quite and shy like me so i was with her for a while then moved onto other people who were talkative but they sidelined me and pushed me away then again i was with this one friend who eventually left me

i shifted to a new college where i found a newcomer like me quite and shy.

i hated school and it was a jail for me where i was under constant pressure just like all other social situations

But i was good in studies and even though there were serious domestic voilence in my house i was able to study well and was average. I got 3-4 rank in some subjects and i remember i topped my class in one economics paper while in college.

Overall i was a fighter and i fought hard circumstances to come out sucessfully though I am not socially sucessful i have been able to survive in this world till date without causing serious harm in any way

If i had good support system at home i would have been a very sucessful person today with good social circle, friends, good job and strong confidence without the past baggage of abuse at social events

I was kind of spacey and didn't really understand how to work the system. I had been reading books instead of paying attention in class since gradeschool, so my grades were floundering. I was awkward with other people and they made me feel anxious, but I managed to get along with a certain set anyway. I actually got on with everyone since I'm a very friendly person, I just always felt on edge the whole time and never felt like I knew what anyone was thinking. I had one 'best friend' who was very edgy and counterculture, but stopped being friends with her after high school because I realized they were rather impatient and sort of a jerk--they were just popular because they were superficially really friendly and had sex appeal.

I was definitely unique-looking, much like I am now. Funny colored hair and bright clothes and things like that...I've dressed like that since I was a little kid, except for my short-lived 'goth'-y stage when I was 13 or so

I dropped out when I turned 16 because my grades were so dismal and I didn't take anything seriously. I didn't have a driver's license until a year after that. I never drank in high school, I think I smoked pot once (unsuccessfully). I still hung around with the nice stoner kids after that, but they never pressured me to partake (contrary to popular stereotypes).

Oh, and I was vegan and didn't know how to cook very well. So I ate a lot of pasta and bread.

I was a loner, even when I was around a lot of people. I grew up in a small town, and people would either complain about how I don't talk enough or how I talk too much. I had a lot of trouble figuring out who I was as a person and my peers were really no help in that.

-shy

-reserved

-invisible ex: i could walk into a room or ask a question and people wouldn't notice.

-in my own world

-bullied

-friendless

-depressed

-anxious

-suicidal

-had both extremely high and extremely low grades depending on the subject.

-more socially clueless than i am now