AliceInAspieland wrote:
Christmas is the worst one. It feels like such a suffocating holiday to me. There is just more everything and it's so in your face that you can't escape it. I don't particularly like getting presents, because I'm ever sure how to react when I get them. Especially if it's something I really wanted or they put a lot of thought into it, the emotion is overwhelming and it usually expresses itself as tears and I refuse to cry in front of anyone.
I don't particularly like my Birthday either. Mainly for two reasons. One, I have no choice but to be the centre of attention, which I loathe. Two, it reminds me of how old I am and how there are all these things which I've dreamed of or wanted to achieve and how I haven't done them yet. It makes me feel like I'm a failure, or it's too late or I'm running out of time.
I'd much prefer celebrations when I can be a quiet observer and retreat for alone time when I need it.
That's how I feel! Especially when I get gifts, I always say thank you but I feel very awkward and sometimes I'm worried that I might sound fake or not sincere when I said it. I never cry, though, but it can get quite hard sometimes. Birthdays to me are nothing different than regular days, except that people make it a big deal, and I usually don't know how to react so I just say "thanks" when people say "happy birthday" (especially the excited ones). I'm sure my facial expression looks like I'm not excited.
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Your Aspie score: 165 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 47 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie