Marknis wrote:
Do these women really hate me or is it just depression coloring my world?
You can't generalize and suggest that all women hate you. That would be statistically improbable. Most women probably don't even know you. Given these conditions, I would surmise that you're depressed and that your depression is clouding your perception.
So what can you do? Have you tried on-line dating? Have you tried joining a social group? Meetup.com is a social platform that promotes group activities in different areas. You could check and see if there are any groups in your area and if there were, you could check the activities to see if there's anything you're interested in.
Many churches have social activities. You could also find a community service to volunteer for.
I'm 57 years old. I've long since come to terms that not everyone I meet will like me. When I was young, I used to be concerned about why. Now that I'm older, I've found that I really don't care. People are welcome to like me or dislike so long as they're not actively harassing me or otherwise interfering with my ability to do my job.
Are you currently seeing a therapist? A therapist could help you with the development of appropriate social skills. This person could also give you relationship advice.