I hate some people... okay. So I don't really hate the people... But I strongly dislike the fact that they like me only for the fact of my "quirky-ness"...? Annoying. Why don't people see the quirkyness and just deem it as being interesting? I think I'm interesting.
I remember crying to my sister, on the point on suicide, and saying how I dislike being not fitting in with everyone else. It was so hard to say that, because it shows weakness. However, all she had to say is, "I thought you enjoyed being quirky?" ... WHAT??! !!??? Of course not! Until I heard that I was allegedly quirky, I had no idea. I mean, I heard the occasional, "You're quite eccentric." But I never took it seriously. You know??? I mean, I find eccentric as an image some "Normies" (Normal People) try to acheive. But I never knew I had that quality, I just thought I didn't fit in for some reason.
But now I get it. I do have trouble speaking to others, and I slur and talk fast. Not only that, but the words in my sentences may be jumbled up. So instead of HOW ARE YOU? Ill nervously spit out YOU HOW ARE???? you know? its just annoying what my anxiety can do.
All in all, it doesn't matter how I word things and string words in a sentence. All that matters is the morals, concepts, and ideals that I am trying to verbally express.
Any one else a little irked at the "QUIRKY" comment?
Note : I posted this because I'm starting to feel that everyone looks at me like I'm a novelty act.
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"I miss the comfort of being sad." -Nirvana