(Some of you may know I've recently had an argument with a friend of mine as I have also posted about that, please bear in mind that although it is connected this is a separate issue.)
I have a few friends at school, and I used to enjoy being around them quite a bit. Recently, though, I've been avoiding them due to an issue with another friend (as mentioned above) who had been saying things about me, so I could avoid that friend too.
Today I had German, and we were planning, in groups, a writing assessment thing we will have to do next lesson. I ended up in a group of just two of us with a girl I would previously have called a friend; however, we did not speak for the majority of the lesson. We had nothing to say to each other any more. I didn't know how to interact with her, although I used to be quite comfortable around her. She also has other friends in the class, and I was getting the vibe that she would prefer to work with them. I, too, would have preferred to work with others in the class who I am now more comfortable around but would not call friends. These other girls also seem to be there for me more; my old friends used to change the subject and laugh off any kind of troubles (I know that sounds mean, but it really wasn't like that, I just can't explain it right).
It made me sort of sad to realise that I didn't want to be friends any more, that I had grown out of this friendship, but I'm sick of pretending that I still like being around them (this has happened with more than one friend recently). Sometimes I wish they'd just go away and leave me alone. I don't know if I should tell them how I feel, or if I even could (I get panic attacks in situations like these), or just carry on pretending.
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Your Aspie score: 153 out of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 40 out of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
AQ - 38
DREAMS>REALITY
07 Feb 2012, 1:20 pm
