It's been a very rough last two years for me. First we moved out of the country, thanks to my husband and the fact that he could lose his job and he pays child support to his pathetic ex...and of course, if he lost his job and we stayed there, then "it would be my fault" if he couldn't pay and of course, there went my freaking life again (idiot ex already ruined MY credit with her darn lies)...then, my crappy brother who is as spoiled as they come...while leaving in Texas, he treated my son very poorly. So poorly that my son has no clue that is even his uncle...his wife was just as crappy to him. I was always nice, as nice as I could be, but the last straw was that when we moved, he lives just 5 minutes away and didn't even have the decency to come say goodbye...he didn't even freaking acknowledge we were leaving...needless to say, after a few months, I got fed up and sent him a text telling him "thank's alot for coming to say bye"...It's been two years and him and his pathetic wife will not even show up for Christmas at my mother's if we are there visiting...I told him "off", if you can even call it that, because once again, it's my son who is hurt...you see, him and his wife have ALWAYS treated him like crap...by totally ignoring him, etc. and once again, they hurt MY son because while my son asked to see his cousin (their daughter), they had a stick up their A$$ and were too "pissed" to even have the kids get together. Please, are you kidding me?
Then we get to living out of town and we rent a small house, literally a s**t hole, from my in-laws...I was not working, but then again, I supported my husband and his pathetic daughter for the 8-10 yrs PRIOR to us moving here because I made much more money than he did, he had once lost his job, etc...needless to say, his mother had nothing better to do than to constantly harrass me about not having a job...we also homeschool and there wasn't a freaking day that she didn't harrass me about that too...by the way, living basically in her freaking backyard, she not ONCE took our son to even eat ice cream...she doesn't work, neither does my husband's sister who is 33 yrs old!! ! I on the other hand even mowed these idiot's 10 acre freaking farm!! ! And also paid full rent as anyone else she rents the darn house to. Finally, we moved from there and of course, I haven't been back and don't plan to. His mother now uses the BS "oh I miss my grandson so much", but didn't do a thing for him while there, heck, once my son who was 8 at the time (he is autistic too), wanted a FLOWER...a flower that had fallen ON THE GROUND out of the other over 300 flowers they were packing up to sell, etc...and she YELLED at him and would NOT give him a darn FLOWER!! ! Anyway, there went that relationship.
My husband has a "Friend" who I used to like, but also doesn't talk to us and gives me crap about me being so negative...why? Oh, because although I have NO CAR and I am HOME all day long without a CAR!! !, he thinks it is UNREASONABLE of me to expect my husband to come home immediately after work everyday instead of allowing him to "go to happy hour with him and the guys at least once a week"...really? Are you kidding me? Well, his wife of course doesn't mind, but she also doesn't homeschool, she also has a car and she also has at least 3-4 people, incl. in-laws and her mother, who keep her kids anytime she wants to go out ANYWHERE...I have NOBODY who will keep my kid and I homeschool...so I am literally at home 24/7 with him, no car and he thinks "I should still allow him to go"...really?
Then well, there are our neighbors...some ok, most I am sick of. Why? We are both super social or we try to be, we have parties, we make sure everyone has a good time, etc...but sure enough, I have constantly had these people where I live tell me how I should raise my son, when I should let him out, for how long, what I should teach him, that I should send him to school, that I should have him in basketball, etc...funny, but of course, they ALL also say he is the most polite, happy and secure kid they have ever met...but constantly tell me what I need to do with him...I am SICK OF IT!! ! And after constant harrassment, I have told a few, it's really "my husband and I who decide" how we want to raise him...so now, they also don't speak to any of us and treat us like crap in front of others. You have to realize this would normally not be a big deal, but where we live, people are constantly walking around, it's almost like a hotel, so they literally get together to have a BBQ right in front of my door and don't even say hi or invite us all of a sudden...
I honestly feel completely worn out by now. I feel like everyone is on my behind and it's always my fault.
By the way, I have even had an ahole neighbor "offer his services to me if my husband isn't doing his job" and my crappy neighbors treat him like a king!! ! I of course, have completely disengaged now when he is around and I am the weird one...I told ONE GUY here who is close to my husband and who I really liked thinking that he would at least understand...so that he didn't feel offended if he was around and I walked away...sure enough, the guy now hardly even comes by...like it's my freaking fault this ahole hit on me...I haven't told my husband because I know my husband will kick his ass...
I am worn out. Just worn out. So sick and tired of people. We had times when we didn't even have food to eat. I now have my old job back, working from home and also work on the internet...so I am always busy trying to make money...now they all think I am "weird" for working too much...mind you, they never had to wonder where their next meal came from and there were plenty of days that we literally had 20USD for gas/food (and my hsuband works in sales) to last us a week!! ! and no food in the fridge...
What should I do...please help...I am just worn out by now...I am sick of these freaking NTs and their BS...
30 Mar 2012, 3:26 am
