I'm really mean!

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I'm mean to my teachers, I'm mean to employees, I'm mean to everyone! I know I am! I was in class tonight and the teacher asked me "are you going to be nice?" because she knows I have autism and because I got a 73% and my average is 85% and I'm starting to hate english because I really like math, so I slack off in English and I didn't apparently add enough "insight" into the characters in my essay.

And I get violent now too, I slam my fist on things and my foot or I raise my voice..

word of advice, as i was told from an aspie friend of mine: "You cant always have things YOUR way."

I know patients is hard i mean gward i cant even spell it
but remember your teachers are people too, perhaps remind them that by telling you you need to be nice the way they did you took as an insult n makes you more angry. i know thats how i would understand that. maybe ask them exactly what they want you to do with your assignments, like how indepth you need to make the characters etc...
but over all just remember, just because stereotypically autistic males are seen as arrogant a**holes doesnt mean one must live up to that stereo type. mind you that friend who gave me the advice is still living up to that stereo type -shrugs.

Are you asking for advice or are you bragging?

That sounds more like petulance than meanness.

"are you going to be nice?"
At least she's acknowledging that your behaviors are a choice that you are making. Your feelings may not be, but you have a choice in how to utilize your feelings and in how you want to talk with others and treat them. Your feelings are indicators to you regarding your internal state, and learning how to pay attention to them and use them correctly takes a lot of practice, but if you work at it, eventually you'll get better and better at being able to detect your moods and tailor your reactions to your environment.

You could try to regulate your emotions. There are plenty of websites and books out there that can help you with that. You can always go to the library if you don't want to spend the money.

-books on emotion regulation
-anxiety
-depression
-anger management

I would agree with the books suggested in a previous post.

Was the "Are you going to be nice?" a real question that expected an answer or just a rhetorical one. She probably would have been mad at me because I cna't tell the difference very well.

Other than that, choose one small goal you can manage. Choose it for yourself but you should still make it one that will improve things at class, and then move on to another goal.

"I do one thing at a time. I do it very well. And then I move on." Or as close as I can remember in quoting Charles Winchester in M*A*S*H.