Honestly, I'm sick and tired of it.
I'm 15 and have aspergers. I'm a decent person who treats other's with kindness and respect, but am not a doormat to anyone and will stand up for myself and stand my ground. I am very anti-violence, pro-diplomatic, pacifist, etc. - I wouldn't hurt a fly if you talked to me.
However, I have an issue with people who HAVEN'T talked to me. By this, I mean random people. Random people in the streets.
I'm actually quite decent at reading other people and their body language, and from what I can tell, I seem to come across as some creepy, aggressive little døuchebag. Walking robotically with a cold stare and emotionless face, with my headphones in my head, etc.
Too many times do I get stares and funny looks from people.
I will give two examples from this week:
1. I was taking a relaxing walk like I always do. A little girl was taking a walk with her grandparents and their small puppy. All I did was slightly smile when I saw the puppy because it was cute. Well, she gave me a funny look, before both her grandparents glared in a kind of anger/fear way.
2. I was sitting on the beach listening to music while my friends were swimming. I was watching my stuff and didn't trust the lifeguards to take care of my stuff like my friends did. Anyway, I decided to just get up and move into the shade instead of the hot sun. Well, this one woman stared/glared right at me. I was minding my own business and everything. I was heading her direction a little, so she might have thought I was walking up to her for some silly reason, but even after I sat down behind her family she still looked back and with the side of her eye.
Stuff like this happens to me all the time. Doesn't matter who they are - male, female, adult, kid, black, white, good-looking, unattractive, etc. I will get this sort of unwanted reactions from people.
Does anyone else experience this? Why does it happen? Just what can I do about it?
11 Oct 2014, 10:29 pm
