Well, having moved to a brand new state and city, from Detriot, Michigan to San Antonio, Texas, and having learned so many things about relationships and social things, I was really hopeful that I would finally find that special woman that would make my life feel complete this year.
But even with the new surroundings and a more confident and positive additude about life, I've been continued to be passed over again and again. I don't know why anymore. I'm genrous, loving and kind, loyal, always there to help, but the result is always the same. I've even been open about my AS, so they know why I'm different than the rest of them. I've even tried dating an HFA, but she played me out like a sucker too. A good, solid, simple man like myself just isn't in high demand in this relationship market.
I've really put up an effort this past year or so to find her, but hoping so many times and getting nothing back in the end has finally taken it's toll on me. I'm going to go back to being a shut-in for now. It would seem that the illusions of hope I had for a new social and sex life were no more real than the ones that I've had prior in my life. I'm so tired of expecting nothing from people or anything from the social realm of my life, but I don't know what else to do. I'm just a nice who wants a nice lady to love and to hold and provide for. I can't be anything else.
08 Feb 2008, 1:52 am
