Mistakes on math forum :(

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Recently I've made a whole slew of mistakes on the math tutoring forums. I've been trying to help them while hearing voices and it's been distracting. Although I've gotten many of the answers correct, I feel that my accuracy has been failing me.

I need to decide whether I should continue tutoring people online (without pay, of course), and even more importantly, whether I should drown myself. I don't want to be a burden on society, and I can't bear to suffer in addition to that. What if I stopped tutoring altogether? Would you want me off the face of the Earth?

I need to know the real answer to this. I don't want some Christian jerk to tell me to stay alive and suffer as an example of failure.

Maybe if the voices would shut up, they would have less reason to make the pronouncements that they do. At any rate, I'm going to have to finish my essays.

We all make mistakes, I wouldn't sweat about making a few about math problems.

My thoughts: If tutoring helps you, I would continue to do it, and just double-check your work.

You're not a burden to society.

Also, finish your essays, and start a few more.

Hang in there.

David

I just retched a few minutes ago. I feel like there's something lodged in my heart.

This has got to be one of the most awful feelings possible for a human being. This feeling of being without a girlfriend, and of feeling like you exist to suffer.

It's like... something is taking control of my heart and causing me to hear voices. I just sit on the floor in my room and breathe heavily, retching and whimpering while I hear, "There's a reason for that. You're a loser, Scott Hoagie Sandwich." In case you're wondering, they're referring to me.

I'm very careful not to conclude that it's Satan, as I feel that Christianity is so full of flaws and imperfections that in all likelihood it is not the word of God. Still, there might be something bad in the world (whether we call it 'Satan' or not) that's causing this to happen to me.

Please, women, can't you show me that you love me? Why do I need to live like this? Do you... like this? Oh, this is so awful.

No voices, no voices... no voices... stupidity... an opinionated judgment... I can't take it anymore... they're just ridiculing me... These are the same insults I heard in middle school. M.D., D.L., M.H., F.W., D.T., all these names are coming back...

I just beat up on 'God' sometimes in my mind. I think of this big, arrogant, cocky son of a b***h and torturer who scorns me... and he yells the same thing every time: "You'll always be syaaaaaad..." I just imagine tearing him up and s***** h** h*** o**, j****** a p*** i* h** t*****, holding him to the b**** o* m* s** to show him that he can't toy with me, that I won't fall for his little tricks (oh how I want to s** him for that)... this is all about 'God'... who am I thinking about?

I get an image of all these idiots laughing at me. I call them idiots because it doesn't seem to matter what they say -- they get to be happy. I'm the one stuck grimacing and hyperventilating when I would otherwise get some peace and quiet. My God, is it that bad to be a virgin?

Oh, come on, girls. Please -- I don't want to hate you, I know you've been nice, I know you're good, I ... think? How can I question this? I don't want to end up this guy who s*** p****** h**** o**... I don't think I really would, anyway... I just want to have a good relationship with women.

Holding people at s*******: sometimes with a bully I don't feel I could have it any other way.

By "hearing voices" you mean hearing voices? O_o'?

You sound like you've lost control of it, take some vacations go to colombia! and you will se how all this hot chicks are going to fight just to date you. and I'm not kidding here!

I know this video might sound like bunch of selling-crap, but I'm from colombia and there I was always hosting travellers, so I was the one in charge of warning them about the girls and how fast they will fall in love with you and try to marry you no matter what. Yet, some of my international friends did stayed or came back few times more, wether for the women, the popularity, the cazy parties, or the posibility to be "millionair-like" rich in a 3rd world country being well paid just cause you are an foreighner.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=TVZxWJ__n1k

I don't know much about the other countries, but in my country at least everything this guy says is true, and girls are like in the vid or hotter (no kidding, in colombia there are hot chicks in every sidewalk! you'll find it difficult to look straigh while walking) only if I could let you see my facebook contacts ... one of my brasilian friends once said that colombian girls were even better than brasilian cause they are not only hot, but sweet, genuine lovers, and they would play with your mind to drive you crazy, and all you have to do for that is to be a foreighner (so... just be yourself XD). Also, there is so much variety that you can chose the perfect girl for you (personality and aestethic preferences).

Even myself, me! an aspie who doesn't fit in latino culture and that doesn't like fast love, doesn't like going to parties, that avoided dating foreighn guys (cause they were all starting to have this idea that they were like gods due to the popularity and the hot chicks) Even I met my soul mate, the love of my life, when he was roundtripping in Colombia and stoped for 4 days in my city. It was impossible for me to meet my geeky love there, so I'm really happy he just dropped by

I love my boyfriend we've been already happily together for more than 2 years, and I think we are going to last lot much more. I hope you can also find the love of your life one day

I found this vid, wich is terrible and the girls don't talk english that well, but truth be told... this is why we like outsiders better than colombian guys... colombian guys are spoiled a**holes. Also, not a lot of girls talk english but as long as you both can talk the language of love it's not a problem hahahahaha it sounds corny, but it's truth like there was this HongKong guy who was dating a girl from my city for almost a year, he didn't spoke spanish, she didn't spoke english.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l2MccGeaKV0[/youtube]

Last night I dreamed that someone on this forum made a post that 'Virgins make the tastiest victims' -- I don't remember exactly what the topic was.

I'm going to try some new things and see if I can pull through. In the meantime, I hope that any bully who reads these posts of mine will take a step back and reflect on the possible severity of the present or future circumstances of his targets. I think there's a point when enough is enough.