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skibum
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03 Feb 2022, 2:25 am

Too much abuse. It's really piling up. I am crumbling under the weight of it. There are no protections in place for people like me who are so socially and psychologically abused all the time. It becomes unbearable.


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03 Feb 2022, 3:51 am

skibum wrote:
Too much abuse. It's really piling up. I am crumbling under the weight of it. There are no protections in place for people like me who are so socially and psychologically abused all the time. It becomes unbearable.

I'm very sorry to hear this. What's going on in your life now?

I'll give you my phone number again via PM. Feel free to call me on Friday or Saturday in the afternoon or early evening, if you need someone to talk to.


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03 Feb 2022, 12:08 pm

Thank you


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03 Feb 2022, 5:18 pm

sending thoughts of comfort and peace. Self care is the most important thing you can do right now. Do you have favorite comfort rituals, are you fed and rested? You are not alone, please reach out to find the sources of your struggles and get help to learn new ways to 'do life' It took over 30 years for me, but things are getting better now, there are so many new supports and therapies, meds, and accommodations available today, if the first thing you try doesn't work, keep on trying. You are worthy of feeling safe, of refuge, peace and healing. Sending heart felt care and concern. Please let us know how you are doing. You are not alone.


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03 Feb 2022, 5:28 pm

Hi Skibum

I just wanted to say I know you're struggling
You've done so much to help me and others
That may not be a consolation but it's true
You've really helped me
I wish I knew how to reach out and help you


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09 Feb 2022, 4:04 pm

Hey there,

I saw your name and thought you sounded like someone I would get along with. My family used to own Magic Mtn ski area in Vermont. So I am a bit of a ski bum myself... well snowboard bum anyway.

Things have been hard for me too. I am just coming out of a several year depression caused by my diagnosis, covid, and my younger brother killing himself last year. I am 100% sure he was autistic too. I tried to convince him to get help... but he chose another way out instead.

Want to know something sad. The thing that pissed me off the most was the fact that he beat me to it. I felt like he stole my ability/right to kill myself. I am not mean enough to do that to my dad a second time. So here I am just hanging around... trying to take it one day at a time.

Anyway... I just wanted you to know my life sucks too. You are not alone... if you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to hit me up.


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