My confidence is destroyed

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I think it says more about them than it does about you. I know that's probably not very helpful. Sorry this is happening to you.

When I was about 13 years old I went to this dance class place with a school friend of mine. At this place every single person just turned on me. They were like a pack of wolves all singing "how much is that doggy in the window" and barking in my face. I felt completely defenseless. It was like some kind of nightmare and I was just stuck there for the duration of the class. Could have been an hour, could have been more.

I think this may have had a negative effect on my confidence. I'm just trying to relate that's all.

That's the first time I've ever told anyone that because it was actually quite a humiliating experience and quite traumatic as well.

All I think now is that they will be all old men and women now. Probably fat, overweight, ugly. Some might remember that moment but most won't so there's not really much point of me dwelling on it either.

You do have a lot of worth Sarah. Don't let worthless pieces of s**t let you think otherwise.

So I feel like the adult version of that almost. I'm going to try to just ignore it. He is not perfect himself. Although he's kind of attractive because he's adventurous and there's an element of being a bad boy, he's also kind of ugly in the face and certainly not a perfect 10. And he's got a lot of brain damage from all the crack he has done. And he's a f*****g idiot.

Yeah the best thing to do is be the adult and just try to ignore it. But if it becomes a real problem call the police because I don't need that s**t. I want to be left alone.

The police will only usually arrest the guy if there’s physical evidence of an assault.

If you call them, they might try to defuse the situation, but, without that “physical evidence,” will not make an arrest unless he acts aggressively in their presence towards you or them. They’d probably separate you.

Ugh okay this might be wrong but I visited him today to confront this bully and face my fears. I explained that he had hurt my feelings and that I was sorry for being a defensive b***h and accusing him of things when he was trying to come clean off drugs and whatever.

I said I think I went down the wrong life path by hanging out with you guys and bit off more than I could chew. He was as sweet as gold the whole visit but I could see a bit of judgement dwelling beneath the surface so I didn't stick around long.

So to deal with this guy I'm going to just have to play it cool and not unleash my defensive bitchyness or he will retaliate pretty quick and make things awkward. So in other words he just wants me to act normal around him and stop accusing him of stuff. I still hate having autism though and I still hate this town. But at least I got some free movies cds and books someone was giving away on that street. And he told me psychadelics might not be a good idea for me with the type of life I have.