This friday I'm posing for a long painting but just for one artist's portfolio/gallery, someone I know from one of the classes. He'll be at my house because I don't have a car and his studio is in a fairly rural town miles away. Bit nervous ngl, nearly turned it down but I could use the money. I saw his other work and it's extensive enough that he's a legit artist, although he's no preraphaelite, just decent at it. So he's done this numerous times before, but I haven't I've only ever posed for groups. He's doing skin tone practice and said he was inspired by my particular look and my lack of tattoos (even though I have 2!), and my long hair and he likes painting me. Also said I'm very still. I'm sure that's artistese for attractive but as long as he's professional in person he's allowed to find me pretty in his head.
I just hope I'm not being an idiot by taking on this job. I told him that his well established gallery of both nude and clothed models in various settings makes me less anxious. He said I've no need to be anxious, but when a man says that I find it dismissive. It isn't reasurring to just be like "don't be anxious", tell me that you UNDERSTAND why I, a single woman living alone, would be apprehensive about posing for one male artist outside of a classroom setting. And THEN try to reasurre me after. I wish more men knew this.
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