16 Dec 2018, 9:00 am
TW1ZTY wrote:
green0star wrote:
TW1ZTY wrote:
But I think the worse thing I experienced was when my best friend passed away in 2012. He had Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy and got really sick and died in the hospital around this same time of year. That hurt me more than anything else because I lost my only real friend and I felt so sad and alone. I esoecially felt guilty because he wanted to me to meet him and his family but I never got the chance to and I never even got the chance to go to his funeral. 
Sometimes even a falling out or losing a friend can be traumatizing in its own right. I had a situation back in middle school where the only friend I really had just moved away without a word and I didn't find out until 3 months later. She never told me anything or hinted that she was moving, we just talked like it was a regular day. When I hadn't heard from her, everyone kept asking me what happened because they knew we were best friends practically and I even thought she died at a point because I hadn't heard anything in what seemed like forever.
I think loosing him is what really pushed me over the edge and caused by Bipolar symptoms to come out. I got pretty crazy after he passed away.
I don't even want to imagine what will happen to me when my mom passes away or if something happened to one of my brothers or my sister.
Somebody actually threw a brick at my sister's car and smashed her windshield causing her to wreck not too long ago. I'm so glad she wasn't hurt and if something really bad happened to her from that I would have completely lost it again.
And I was gonna say after I went through that situation with my childhood friend I never really got close with anyone else after that for a long time. We even went on to fall out after high school because she came out as bisexual to myself and my family and my parents low key gave her a verbal lashing over it and that ruined our friendship understandably.
The problem is that she's really the only real friend I ever had. Everyone else was either a mere acquaintance or just residue taking up space in my life. I actually fell out with another childhood friend after I picked up on the fact she was developing opportunistic tendencies and I had to cut her loose.
