Pain and suicide

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Thanks Juliette . My stepdaughter had to have an operation for plantar fasciitis . With me it may well be something as minor as hard skin , as my stepdaughter has suggested. The cause? Being very sedentary, and tending to put more pressure on my right foot compared to my left one . Not going out much due to the virus situation has also exacerbated things .

I have many physically painful experiences (burns, leukemia, bowel resections, kidney stones, car wreck, etc), and have had more than 70 major surgeries (and many more minor ones or non-surgical procedures) in my 33 years of life, and yes, I have contemplated suicide (I wanted to die at age 7 when my skin grafts for burns failed).

That said, I have had a few emotionally painful experiences, and those are far worse. Although I haven't entertained suicide in years, I would be lying if I didn't *hope* to be t-boned at 70 MPH (115 KPH) and die a quick death at times. Right now, I'm in a decent place, and although I deal with physical pain (mostly in the belly - thanks to dozens of surgeries and trauma), I am OK with living until I become unable to function independently.

With all that, I can definitely understanding wanting to die due to physical pain, especially if there is no hope of it getting better. I've always had hope; there's no telling when there is seemingly no hope.

ETA - Thank God I have never experienced Plantar Fascitis, but I hear that it is unabating pain. Are they going to do surgery?

Last edited by whatacrazyride on 04 Aug 2020, 11:23 pm, edited 1 time in total.

^^^hey What, welcome to WP

If it could be plantar fasciitis, get it looked at... faster than I did. I attempted to go to work on it and was reliant on a walking stick for about 18 months. Which as I work as a cleaner was a little awkward. I was left with a chronic ache in both feet. It's been improving over the last few years, but very slowly.

I was taught various physiotherapy exercises, which I still do every day. Plus, massaging my feet and lower legs, both by hand and with a spiky rubber ball. And the secret ingredient- lots and lots of ibuprofen gel. Time off for lockdown has helped- I wasn't on my feet all day anymore, but also I had enough energy to try leg stretches and squats which seem to have improved flexibilty.