I told my parents I never want to see them again

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If the mask slips, I’ll claim i’m sick or tired.
I won’t ever stop trying to gain status.

Life isn’t worth living if you can’t pass as NT. I’ve spent so much time trying to appear normal and now it’s finally starting to work. I don’t want to fail now.

If I save enough money, I can quit my job and be as autistic as I want. I’ll have so much money that I can do whatever I want. Fitting in won’t matter because the money will provide for me.

Being rich is my only life goal. I can’t unmask until I get there.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to do well in life, but you seem to be under the impression that being terrible will actively contribute to that goal when that's usually not how things work in the real world.

Most terrible people don't succeed and when they do it's rarely because of the traits that make them terrible, it's almost always in spite of those traits. Some of those traits might contribute to why they feel entitled to succeed, but again, it's other traits that actively contribute to their successes.

Antisocial traits rarely breed loyalty from the people one is close to, which additionally contributes to social struggles because the people who become close to you are usually driven by little more than how they can benefit from you. You're just as disposable to them as they are to you.

It's a very high risk strategy that's more likely to result in failure than success. The problem is, the antisocial people who are failing at life rarely get attention unless it's due to criminal proceedings so you don't get to hear about how and why they failed, instead you hear mostly about the rare success cases.

I would love to see my parent’s house burn down and have them end up homeless. They don’t realize how much giving me a diagnosis hurt my self-esteem. Maybe they deserve bad things to happen to them.

I already told my parents I will not pay for nursing home or funeral expenses. My successful well-off NT relatives can do it.

There’s nothing good about autism. It’s a disease for a reason.

No issue there.
Be open, don't be open. Rant, don't rant.

Just wise up.

And whatever schemes you're going to do, just remain within ethical boundaries.



Antisocial traits are hyped as some sort of rule breaker that one gets what one wants, including hurting others, with less consequences and induces fear, guilt, shame onto others -- it requires counterbalance of executive function or degree of social planning above else to maintain the illusion of control over others.

If this is what you want to develop, all I advise to you is be ethical about it.
One doesn't need morals or even empathy to 'do good' or 'be good', but ethics will do.


But if something goes wrong (actually burning out, getting found out), you had to understand why and what actually leads to such consequences.
Even better; predicting such possibility way ahead of you and avoiding it.

This is what most of those with anti-social tendencies and personality disorders become repeated offenders and causes of their downfall.
Even many NDs including and especially autistics, get themselves set up over where they take the fall.

Else, you will never go far.
Worse, anything you built up will be undone.

And don't play with fire; literally and metaphorically.



Since it's clear you're not pursuing love (self or other), actually quelling loneliness (or any inner work for that matter) or even breaking generational cycles (as per topic of this thread and replies); but whatever idea you're convinced of like the status quo and outsiders' perception as a means to bring your peace of mind (your hate for a diagnostic label) and your own path.


Blame what you need to blame. Take any opportunity, build an opportunistic mindset since you think it's a dog eat dog world.

Regardless of what you achieve, it's all on you.



I'm not going to convince you otherwise -- reconnecting, reconciling, etc; that will come to you or if you thought that will be a potential regret later on...
.. Not that one typically can emotionally predict that far away.

And I ain't saving your soul over it. Clearly, you're not interested in that.

But I support anyone's pursuit for independence and autonomy above else.

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Only being rich will make me happy.

Look, now that I've calmed down, I don't really want to have to lie and cheat my way through life. But I feel like I have no other option.

And I hate that my parents coddle me and don't think I can do anything on my own.

You're harming yourself by doing all this. Stop. Be a better person. Give up this hateful garbage.