Does anyone else feel like they’re stuck in the past?

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there are some really great responses on this question.

"rumination."

"double-dose of this rumination habit"

I like this post because I am a nostalgic person. Although I long for certain years of my life, the problem is that I would be away from my family of today who were born after those years. But if I could live through a certain number of those years, knowing I would be returned to my family of today, I would select the years 1974 -- 1976. I can recall many times during those years as if they happened yesterday. For example, although not that pleasant at the time, I would like to experience again my best friend and mine's attempt at 4H camp.
I can remember the drive to a city where we ate at the first Wendy's of our life. I had a single and fries while admiring the gypsy bead theme of the restaurant. Yes, it was gypsy like. The I remember the drive to the camp. I remember counting the holes the straps of my suitcase was buckled in to make sure no one bothered my stuff. I recall the activities that day and the spaghetti dinner in the lodge. I recall the campfire that night where a number of silly activities entertained us, such as the belly roll contest (my friend and I did not participate -- we were both a lot alike). I recall going to bed and my friend and I discussing our desire to escape camp, which we did the next day during the swimming hour.

I ruminate a lot about the years and years of poor mental health treatment I received. Things are better now, but not to the extent that past damage can be reversed. In the 8 years I've lived in Wiltshire there's been no angry exchange of words with mental health professionals. Yet I haven't changed as a person. I'm as much against injustice as I ever was.That tells me the only thing I could've legitimately been blamed for, re the toxic situation in Essex, was not always responding constructively to poor treatment.

I doubt I could've been a contender, but I had the potential to do reasonably well in life, if I had been given good,holistic, help and support. Cognitively, mental health, and practical skills,wise.As it is I've gone through life with a mind like a very good orchestra conducted by a drunken, third rate, conductor.