WARNING: Drunk offensive rant against NT's
Sad to hear you feel so bad, hope you feel better soon.
Hatetred will only make you feel worse, its does nothing
positive for you or your life in the long run. And then theres
this "them" and "us" that keeps on appearing in many posts,
we dont need more walls and borders, we need fewer. Some
people with AS dont like NT`s but to me that makes no sense,
we`re all people and non of us have chosen how we come out -
If people with AS are going to have the attitude that NT`s suck,
all NT`s as one big group, then i will understand it very well if
no NT`s would want to be around people with AS. I know that
people can suck and be horrible but that is not an NT trait, at all.
Thats a human trait, we can all suck at times. You write you have
little faith in NT`s, i have never had much faith in any humans at
all, i lost that faith over 20 years ago. Its humans and they will
disappoint you, thats for sure. The trick is what you do when they
disappoint you, dont take it out on yourself. Take all that hatetred
and energy and use it to work, work to make yourself happy. Dont
let hate towards some random humans who means nothing when
looking at the big picture ruin your days.
You draw out a valid conclusion, ie: the hate is unjustified, and I agree with you that I acted irrationally without thinking on my own personal vendetta against a few NT's (and I was drunk, and I do reckless things when I'm drunk). I'm a pretty bipolar person, and my feelings fluctuate a lot from love to hate, and vice versa, usually triggered if somebody has hurt me.
However, in my opinion, there were a couple of flaws in your argument and the analogy you used didn't really work.
1) Japanese is not the first language spoken by around 99% of the world's population, so we don't live in a society where everybody else speaks Japanese and we're the only ones who can't, unless you live in Japan of course.
2) As far as I know, the Japanese don't discriminate against us for not learning their language. Not saying all NT's discriminate against us, but a lot of them do.
3) You seem to assume that I'm capable of understanding NT's, but I just haven't bothered to do so, and that's the reason for my resentment. Perhaps I'm wrong, maybe I am capable of understanding them, but I don't think that day is coming anytime soon.
I think a better analogy you could've used would be that I hate all Japanese people over a misunderstanding with one or two Japanese people because I can't pick their language up correctly. I'm not saying your overall point is wrong, though. You're absolutely right, and you got the point across.
If I offended a lot of people then I apologise, I posted what I said without thinking and without realising you couldn't delete it afterwards. I'd also like to apologise to all NT's reading this. Please forgive me for acting the way I did just because of a falling out with a couple of NT people in my private life, it was wrong, and I'd never follow through with anything I said. Hatred is a self-destructive emotion, I know, but sometimes things happen that make my blood boil and I attack people unjustifiably.
I thought this too, once upon a time, and I was very angry with NT's for making my life difficult. However, in this world it's probably more of a 'if you can't beat them, then join them' attitude which is required. I don't mean that you have to become totally NT because this is impossible as far as I understand. But if you can fudge and wing your way through life by learning how their minds work and to do the silly things they do, life is easier. Much easier. It's also very hard to learn to do that, but that's a topic for another discussion. NT's do say some strange things though (apart from idioms). My pet hate is "You were in the wrong place at the wrong time." and "It was too little, too late." Whaaat?! Sorry, but those statements do not make sense at all! It's not even good Grammar!
