Do I have schizotypal disorder or even schizophrenia?

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"Mentality" "invented" totetesolipsism and hyperomnibenevolentism "from opposition to nonuniversalism". According to "mentality", all sentient being have to be saved in happiness forever regardless of their sins. "Mentality" considers endless unforgiveness of a sin absolutely immoral and totally evil. "Mentality" rejects nouniversalistic beliefs and "it" considers them unjust and false.

Donald Triplett, Donald Trump, Donald Tusk - "triplet of Donalds T."

Triplet of triplets:
- 84, 42, 21,
- 33, 42, 51,
- 5, 23, 421.

F84.5, F42.2, F21.
Z = 33, Z = 42, Z = 51.
L5-AA23 TK-421.

8 + 4, 4 + 2, 2 + 1 -> 12, 6, 3.
3^3, 4^2, 5^1 -> 27, 16, 5.
Only extreme digits of the numbers 5, 23, 421 -> 5, 23, 41.

I would suppose that my experiences are not "typical" nor hallucinations or delusions and even not paranormal, but supernatural. I have hypothesis that my "coincidences" are signs and miracles "allowed" by The Deity and I have "reference, messengership and grandiose ideas" because of it. I experienced some "coincidences" in the first decade of September 2025. They are intriguing.

I do not have hallucinations. I do not live like average adult human. I am on social pension due to mental health problems and I have no job since more than 6,5 years. I have moderate level of disability, not severe, due to mental illness and pervasive developmental disorder. I am on day hospital again now. I do not get do much psychotropic drugs, only 100 mg sulpiride, 30 mg paroxetine and 2 mg reboxetine, all at morning. I do not have schizophrenia diagnosis, but I have schizotypal disorder diagnosis. I am very intriguing by the question whether my sister has autism spectrum disorder (pervasive developmental disorder). I do not know if she is allistic or autistic. Her behavior looks not like anything about which I read and she functioned very bad when she was 20 - 23 years old. I think that she still has no diagnosis at all and that she even did not had a contact with a psychiatrist in her life.

I have "feeling" that exceptionless, actual universalism of Salvation is the only just and coherent eschatology.

My mentality is "antireligious" in many ways despite not being nonmonotheistic and despite believing in life after death of the body. My "mentality" sees no sense in Catholic examination of conscience, confessing concrete sins or in Ramadan fasting since dawn to dusk or since sunrise to sunset, salat prayers, rigid nonworking in Sabbath, considering eating pig's body evil...

I have never had more significant issues with hallucinations, I might have hallucinations only very sporadically. I do not get large doses of antypsychotic medications now. I only get 100 mg of sulpiride per day and it is a small dose. I also get 30 mg of paroxetine per day (antidepressant, SSRI) and 2 mg of reboxetine per day (antidepressant, NRI).

I think that I had never had serious psychotic episode in my life. I do not have the impression that others hear my thoughts, know my thoughts or certainly plan to kill me. I do not hear the "echo of thoughts".

Nonuniversalism looks antimoral and antirational to my "mentality". My "mentality" wants endless Salvation for literally all sentient being which have ever existed without any exception. "It" wants universal reconciliation, not irreversible punishment. Endless punishment looks to be unjust antimercy to my "mentality". Happiness and pleasure are good, pain and annihilation of a sentient being are evil. Both infernism and annihilationism are utterly unjust according to my "mentality". "It" does not want endless perdition for anyone. "It" wants omniforgiveness and endless bliss even for the worst of all sinners. Only omniforgiveness is just and merciful according to my "mentality". My "mentality" thinks that irreversible punishment and irreversible damnation absolutely can't exist. "It" thinks that irreversible damnation is absolutely against the omnibenevolent nature of The Divine Being.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fy525-QwBUE - You're Living in a Horror Story. I do not believe in atheism. But my "mentality" agrees that any form of nonuniversalism (not only associated with occurrence of eternal torture) is monstrously immoral. My "mentality" agrees with a lot in this film, but not with everything which is present.

"Mentality" thinks that endless torture does not exist. "Mentality" thinks that omniuniversalism is the true theology. "Mentality" thinks that every sentient being will be saved endlessly with happiness regardless of any sin. "mentality" thinks that annihilationism is instrinsically evil too. "Mentality" does not believe in annihilationism, "mentality" believes in omniuniversalism. Mainstream atheism is a form of annihilationism too... I do not want to cease to exist. Undending torture is intrinsically evil morally and physically according to my "mentality". "Mentality" thinks that some Catholic dogmas are utter falsehood... "Mentality" does not believe in conditional salvation. "Mentality" believes in morality and mathematics, not in letter and dogma. The idea of unforgivable sin is utterly absurdal to my "mentality". Happiness is good. Pleasure is good. Suffering is evil. Annihilation of a sentient being is evil. Happiness matters!

According to "mentality", nonuniversalism is not amoral and not just immoral, but absolutely antimoral. According to "it", it is totally evil morally to damn aby sentient being forever, without possibility of full reconciliation, no matter how abominable the sins of that being would be.

My "mentality" thinks that there is no punishment after death to really, "madly" scare about, especially for humans like those inhabiting Earth now. According to "mentality", endless damnation and annihilation are utterly impossible even for the Satan. Some sins are larger, some sins are smaller, but all sins are completely forgivable according to the "mentality".

Consciousness and sentientness are "inconceivable". I think that they can not be understood using maths. Colors and odors definitely require more than maths IMO!

Goodness is infinitely stronger than evil. God is The Good. Only He is divine.

I do not want to deprave anyone!

According to "mentality", unforgivable sin is absolutely impossible, not just not wanted by The Divine Being. "It" sees no sense at all in any unendable punishment! According to "mentality", justice is NOT opposite of mercy. Unending punishment would be characterized as malevolence, capriciousness and unforgiveness by "mentality", ESPECIALLY when this punishment is inflicted by The Divine Being. According to "mentality", inflicting even just one such a punishment would turn the inflictor into absolutely evil being excluding possibility of being morally good and excluding possibility of being morally neutral. Unendable punishment is absolute evil according to "mentality". It thinks that fear of Endless or Cruel Divine Punishment or Annihilation has no moral basis at all because existence of even only one such a punishment or phenomenon would mean that The Divine Being is Absolute Wickedness and Utmost Darkness without grace, goodness, holiness and perfection Oneself (which would be outright absurd) according to "mentality".