I think I get delusional sometimes

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Do you think that things are escalating or has frying your PS4 got it out of your system , a couple of weeks seems like a long time to wait if your struggling.

I dunno... I took a hydroxyzine to calm me down and I feel better now. I hope I can hamg in there for a couple of weeks without having to go back to the crisis center.

I think my meds need to be adjusted.

They seem to have been working ok until recently. Sorry you've had done setbacks, but the fact that you're aware of them is a good thing. People that are totally out of it don't even realize it.

When I had PTSD about 2004-2006 I was often delusional and had some rough times.

Monitor your situation and if you need an appointment sooner in order to adjust med, do it.

It definitely sounds like something needs to change Twiz , you are clearly unhappy.

Did you trash the system to save money for your sister? I know that's weighing on you.

To be honest I have broken every game system I ever got whenever I was feeling manic. I wasted money buying four PS3's and trashee them and my mom was very angry about that, so I know she would be angry about my PS4 too and she has the right to be angry.

I also used to throw things away. I had a huge collection of nice things I had collectes since childhood and it's gone because I chunked it all in the trash everytime I got rageful or paranoid.

I reallly DO do things that make no sense when I'm like this. My mama even called me today and said she was really worried because she noticed I haven't been acting like myself.

This is why I really hate having Bipolar Disorder. I wish it was just Aspergers.


But I will never again buy another game system.

Keep your nice new things you got for Christmas safe please, hide them if need be.

Your mom is right to be concerned. She may need to get you to a doctor ASAP. She wants what best for you. And you have friends here on WP. So you luckily have support both online and IRL.

I've broken stuff during tantrums so know what it's like.

My therapist has two main mantras:

"Depression is anger turned inward // Anger is depression turned outward".

"Depression is about the past, anxiety is about the future, and panic is about the present".


According to this, your manic panic would be depression about the "present" manifesting as an outburst.
That seems pretty obvious, I'm sure.

Perhaps you can try writing in a personal diary about triggers that make you feel depressed.

I agree you should see your doctor asap. We're all here to listen next time you feel manic.

Hugs to TW1Z