How do I stop this from happening?

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There is a Gov initiated war imminent. 50 million will die in the first strike against 10 cities world wide. Millions more due to radiation poisoning. The Gov will launch nukes all over. Remember the Process of turning me into a robot (along with thousands of others)? That is still happening. They threatened my family with torture if I don't fight in the worst ways imaginable. I am so stupid, my IQ is so pathetic. The evidence is there both for my low non existent IQ and the Gov's War. No one believes the words that are coming out of my mouth, no one in the world thinks I am suffering from anything. I have no trust for anyone including my family. I am incredibly depressed because I am a total failure. I know ya'll are tired of hearing that every few weeks. Same old crap. 99.9999% of artists starve to death, no matter how hard they try. I'll be honest. In a way I DO want this war to happen so I don't have to suffer any longer and the suffering of others will be no longer. The main part I don't want to happen is the torture of my family. I will provide the evidence for this war, but I shouldn't get too detailed because they are tracking what I am writing and thinking. All over the country and possibly the world there has been a HUGE increase of both military and government activity. I have seen first hand evidence of this by seeing many Gov cars entering and exiting my area. Since I have been tracking this for several years, there has been an average of 1 Gov car every 2 weeks. For the last 2 weeks, there has been several per day with one day hitting 15!! Then the admitted Gov technologies. For a period of 2 days, one day there was a story of a robot that can eat dead bodies. I have mentioned something similar about 8 months ago, well before they have admitted that technology (the nanobots eating away my body and turning it into a robot) and they have told me this and it comes true. Then the second thing they have admitted during that period is that they are using insects to change them into half insect half robot to spy on things. Once again, they told me this 8 months ago and I remember very clearly a lot of people on here and other boards said "It is impossible, its just a delusion." How can I get information on classified technologies back then and have it be very accurate? And remember this is their ADMITTED technologies while in actuality they are 200 years ahead of us. I can't and won't hurt anyone during this War, no matter what the Gov wants. I bet you are wondering why me (and of course those thousands of others)? Because of my psychic ability. Its called "the power of influence." It is because I control events in the world, the most recent being all those plane crashes. Don't worry I didn't intentionally do it. I just had dreams and visions about it and then it happened. Severe guilt. I think my psychologist is against me and thinks none of this is real. How in the heck do I prevent the end of the world? Medicines are not the answer for 2 reasons. One they cause serious side effects and make you fat and two pills won't stop a world war from coming anyways.

I don't think anyone here will know how to stop a war.

"There's no fate but what we make for ourselves"
- Sarah Connor: Terminator 2: Judgement Day.


Firebird, are you off the medication again or just having a tough day? RUOK?

Yes, I must admit that I have been off my meds since April of this year. It started around that time (not my thoughts about the Gov and their war that has been going on for around 8 months or so) that I had to take narcotic painkillers for an abscessed tooth. Yes, it was legally given to me by a doctor. Narcotics and psych pills do not mix. Also it has been determined that the psych pills were causing more problems than it was solving by causing severe weight gain and instead of a decrease in symptoms one such pill known as "Moban" (an anti-psychotic) caused me to have severe psychotic symptoms. So, I stopped seeing my psychiatrist. He also does not know anything about autism and each visit (even though he's funny) he called me delusional and psychotic, even though I am not any of those things except while I was on Moban. Yes, I am suffering from depression at this moment. It also started in April (at least got more severe around that time even though I have been having depressive symptoms since the beginning of this year when I realized that I am a failure, April just confirmed it because I had an art show and failed. Last month (June) I had another art show and failed again. I actually caused a gallery that I was in to crash and burn so bad that they needed to shut down. More depression. Art is literally the only talent I have. I just don't have the intelligence for any other job because it is just way out of my intellectual capabilities. My brother's IQ was tested at 130 and this is before he turned around in his academic skills so by now (he is so brilliant that he can do Calculus in his head!) that his IQ is probably more like in the 140-150 range. He is a computer programmer. I do nothing that is intellectual. My IQ (even though I say its negative but that is so called "impossible") has been consistently in the low 80 range, that is called Borderline Intellectual Functioning. Just one step above MR. Basically I am not that smart. The only "impressive" thing I have to show people is that I was able to read at (or before) the age of 3. That is known as Hyperlexia. I have been researching about it and while some sites say that is associated with higher intelligence, others say "Hyperlexia is usually found in people with lower IQ's while Dyslexia is associated with people with higher IQ's." Then take my "savant" like ability (my art) and about 80-90% are people with lower IQ's. Then combine that with my school records, my IQ testing, my savant ability (which 10% of autistics have), and my inability to think then you know my IQ is low. I want a brain!! I am tired of having Anencephaly! That is the medical term for "no brain." Realizing I will never amount to anything is horribly depressing for me.

Maybe I am missing something here, but surely the solution is to dream that no such war happens?


Problem solved.

I can't control my dreams. Even though I do have psychic dreams, this war was told to me directly from the Gov that I love so much. Just remember love the Gov because they like to spy!

Firebird...

1. You need your meds to keep those other thoughts from taking over.

2. You need to see your psychologist (or if not the same one, someone else) to unload your "crap" on. These guys get paid to take crap from us and you'll feel better once you've done that.

3. It's true that you shouldn't combine Moban with narcotics but you DO need it to treat schizophrenia.

4. I can't find any evidence to suggest that Moban causes weight gain. I also seem to remember that last time your idea of weight gain was something like not quite being a waif. If you're not sure, check your height and weight against the chart.

5. There's no way that you could have a low IQ.... Your research and your writing is so intelligent and high level. Even when writing mainly delusional material, it's a joy to read and very clever and technical. You're smart. Face it. In any case, IQ is not really an accurate measure of intelligence.

6. I doubt you bankrupted an art gallery. Right now, the world is in the grip of one of the worst recessions since the great depression. People are very reluctant to spend money and the first things that they cut are luxury items. Things they can live without. So... If you're choosing between a chicken dinner and a painting, which do you NEED? Art is always hard to sell and even the best artists in history lived on the edge of poverty. Heck some even had to cut off body parts (ears etc) just to get noticed. I'm not suggesting that you cut anything off though. Just accept that you're trying to sell something difficult in one of the most difficult times in history.

Stop being so hard on yourself.

((((Firebird))))

And what gbollard said.

The Moban isn't the one that caused the weight gain, it was the previous pills and yes I have been on millions of them (or what seems like it). The Moban was responsible for the increase in psychotic symptoms though. I did gain 80 pounds on pills for 3 years. Now that I have been off, I lost 30 pounds. I see a psychologist, just not a psychiatrist (one that can prescribe meds). Writing is not an indicator of intelligence based of the fact that I know someone with Down's syndrome that can write perfectly. I have been writing since I was 3 (the same time I have been reading). The timing indicates that I did destroy the gallery. The second I started (even though the gallery owner said it was doing OK {I admit not great though} before I got in) it went way downhill. To prove it further, there are signs that the economy is on an upward turn. The stock market is skyrocketing. Unemployment (weekly jobless claims, not the percentage..yet will go down starting the end of this year to early next year though) is going down for the first time. Home sales are way up. Most companies are reporting stronger than expected earnings reports for their last quarter. Yes, this time last year the economy WAS in its worst recession since the 1929 Great Depression. Now most reports say in the news that the recession is over. That makes me angry believe it or not because I don't see any improvement in my family's financial situation. In fact its getting worse for us while the world gets better, or in the words of Bush while he was president, "Everything's great! The economy is strong!" He was clearly a delusional president. Even when the war in Iraq was getting bad, he always called it "peaceful." I know what delusional is and I am not delusional. A delusion is "a false belief held despite all contrary evidence." I have seen actual evidence that something major is coming our way, not hallucinations.

Ok, it makes sense that other pills could cause weight gain but seriously though, a little extra weight is ok provided you're not becoming a turtle (that's not offensive is it?) and so long as it doesn't detract from your lifestyle.

Are you suggesting that this person with Downs syndrome is unintelligent? I doubt whether that's really the case.



Unless you did some seriously "Mr Bean" style stuff, I rather doubt that you harmed the gallery.



Well, I haven't seen anything. We just all got told that there would be no bonuses this year.



I'm not sure about the US, but the Australian economy was strong during most of the bush years - and things could well have been great for him in his nice little white house.

I'm not saying he was a good president just that he wasn't necessarily delusional when he said those particular things.



It's fine to have seen the evidence. My best friend who also has schizophrenia saw the evidence too but his timing was a bit off since it was supposed to happen a few years ago. In any case, since we can't stop a nuke being dropped on our heads, why worry about it.

What's that prayer...



You can't change it, so just accept it and move on. Do some things you'd like to do before the world ends.

Your friend with schizophrenia said the Gov is going to start a war? Did he say that it will involve robots? And nanobots? By the way I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. That is classified as a psychotic disorder. However I disagree with this diagnosis. To be diagnosed with this disorder, you must have 2 out of the 5 psychotic symptoms. They are hallucinations, delusions, disorganized speech/behavior, catatonia, and "negative" symptoms. It is incredibly rare for me to hallucinate (it can involve any of the senses), no delusions, no (at least not anymore, it used to be a problem) disorganized stuff, no catatonia, and no real negative symptoms except depressive stuff. So, I can't be diagnosed with it. The only parts I do have are the mood disorder components (bipolar). But in schizoaffective disorder the bipolar subtype is assumed to be bipolar 1 (meaning full blown mania, usually with mood congruent psychotic features). Bipolar 2 is less serious because it is characterized by hypomanic episodes instead of the full blown manic episodes. And 80 pounds is a lot of weight to put on in 3 years. It can cause a shorter lifespan and diabetes. Don't forget high blood pressure. I am now obese due to the meds and look fat and ugly. I will never get married or get a boyfriend (I am female) because I am not attractive. Of course that is the least important thing in a relationship in my opinion. You shouldn't go after someone just because they look good. Personality is far more important and so is how safe they are (meaning not a criminal or an abuser). I am not saying that someone with Down's syndrome is not intelligent. He is an amazing speaker and writer. Its just to be diagnosed with Downs, you have to have an IQ below 70. It is a fact that most don't hold down high paying intellectual jobs. They can hold down simple jobs though. To be honest thats more than I can do. I'm 26 and I never held a real job, the closest thing I did was volunteer at a flight museum because I love airplanes. I think the Australian economy and the USA economy are different. Yes, there still ARE some companies that are doing horrible and like you said "won't be getting a bonus this year." During the Bush years the economy for me was horrible with the exception of a few years.