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OK PPL i need to know if I have ASPERGERS OR its just a False Alarm, Let me sum up my life story in a paragraph, ill try,

When I was young, I didnt have many friends, i had one kid who was my friend in first grade, was my best friend until he moved, then in 6th grade i made a few friends, we used to all skateboard together, I had good grades until 10th grade, when i started smoking pot and selling pot. Became a dealer then went to prison, in prison, i lost myself, i felt that i became ret*d being that i had nothing to talk about anymore i felt, sunk in a deep depression, Ive never really choose my friends really, it just happened,

So im 22 now, came out of prison and had to start my life OVER.
THEN REALITY HIT ME, I had to learn to be normal and SOCIAL. I went to community college, made a few friends but was relatively quiet. Only speak when i have something to say, i dont keep running my mouth like the others. I really didnt give eye contact until I started reading about dating and picking up girls. People call me wierd, Im friends with some social outcasts. I am very concious on my looks, always look my best. Always thought I was "shy." I had severe parania of cops for a bit. I had social anxiety, OCD in that i used to wash my hands alot and watch porn as a hobby. Ever since I discovered ASPERGERS my world turned upside down. Ive been improving until i read about AS and that its genetic, I was so confused and mad, i just wanted 2 commit suicide. I made a friend at work, a co-worker female, i would be really cool n funny with her at first but then I heard about AS and now i dont feel like speaking too much anymore at times. I used to think "i dont know what to talk about" IS THAT ASPERGERS?! !!

Im waking up nowadays for the past few days, I lost all my hobbies in my life due to my large f**k up of going to prison, then my hobby became studying social science and how to chagne myself, then I read People with AS cant change!, that freaked me out. So I was using the computer for studying alot after getn out of prison, they said ASPIE ppl LOVE computers, i cut off video games and television to change myself. Everyone seems so happy and socially competent and I just feel wierd because I dont like participate in football and social norms like that tho its a cool sport, i dont watch it like life and death "NT's" do, i say crazy things at times as a joke, some people get wierded out. Im learning all about SOCIALness but it seems i havent picked it up when i was in elementary school which PISSES ME OFF. I dont use alot of emotion in my speech and i used to have a very monotonous voice and still do sometimes. I love singing along with music and suck at math, I SELF DIAGNOSED MYSELF and AM CONFUSED NOW, ive read more then u cud imagine in the past few weeks, this really is messing my life up! well its for the better but what do U THINK!!

I have no idea if you have AS or not, but the idea you can't change things is ridiculous. You can accomplish anything if you take your weaknesses into account and find a way around it.

Think: Maybe it doesn't matter if you have it or not. You know what your weaknesses are and thats what matters

So - what to say? You maybe are and maybe aren't in the spectrum, and I can't claim to diagnose you even if you were in front of me and I have a feeling that diagnosis up or down or across is not the issue.

From what you write, though, I know this - whether or not the traits we share mean we both are in Asperher territory or one of us or neither, your psychic spiritual health level needs some boosting. There are all sort of routes for health upgrades, and again I can't say do this don't to that even with you in front of me.

But I can say this, having myself been up and down and twisted around:

1. Whether or not Asperger's syndrome is genetic, and i doubt the evidence is in on that, YOU are not - NOT - doomed by your genes. Even if every one of your ancestors died of spontaneous combustion on their 50th birthday, you are NOT doomed. I once thought I was. Tain't so.

2. No matter what, you can always move up the scale. You just need to do two things - be open to being better off than you are [not everyone wants to avoid spontaneous combustion], AND do not give up and jump off the deep end.

3. I am sure those here will do what can be done verbally, and some of it will be aimed straight at you. But I would urge you - find someone you can trust - you will know who - and talk and listen.

4. You are NOT alone where you are.

That ASPERGERS ppl write messy and do cursive mixed with normal print and i do this!

Would be interesting if you wrote worse than I do. True story - one of my teachers once said my handwriting was "really very legible when you got used to it." That was the guy who had the police come in to stop him smashing up his apartment.

Even if you have AS you can learn some coping strategies. You can become a bit social. Try not to get down about not being able to say much. That once gave me severe social anxiety. I do things like watch the news so I can at least join in on conversation when people talk about the news. Or try to stay up-to-date about what other people are interested in.
Just because it's genetic doesn't mean your stuck with being the way you are for the rest of your life. I've felt like that at times, but I have learned to accept myself and try to enjoy being around people, and then I began getting better social skills and more self esteem.
I suck at math too. Always have. I used to think everyone found it as boring and as hard as me but I was wrong. I also try not to get down about that.
If you have any hobbies focus on them. Being social isn't the only thing in the world. People act like it is. I maybe socialize once every few weeks if I'm lucky.

WHAT IS ASPERGERS, CANT THE NEURAL PATHWAYS BE CHANGED??? TO BE SOCIAL

In short, Yes.

For the long answer, read "The Brain Changes Itself" By Norman Doidge, if you haven't already.

just asking

IF U CHANGED UR MIND ALRADY WHY ARE YOU ON THIS SITE?

I don't have any form of Autism. I came here to get some advice regarding my brother who is Low Functioning Autistic. My AS sister is currently undergoing treatment that is supposed to alter her neural pathways, hence why I decided to respond to your thread.

Could you please not type in all caps? It is like you are yelling.
Certain symptoms can be overcome. There are books out there that can teach you body language. Just watching two people converse helps me because I'm seeing two people interact. I'm watching their eyes, hand gestures, etc. I like to just sit there someone and watch and listen to them. It's a whole less stressful than wanting to join in on a conversation when I have nothing to say.
I don't really care about being social these days. I can do it, but if I push myself too much I can become overstimulated and that results in me being in a bad mood.
Just by not being bothered by my symptoms I can gradually get better at doing certain things. It does take a lot of work and time, so you must be patient.
I encourage you to stay at this forum, read the posts and it will get a lot easier when you know you aren't alone. I like being here because I know I'm not alone and there are some helpful tips on how to overcome certain things.

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It's sometimes hard to predict whether someone does or doesn't have asperger's. Having asperger's doesn't always mean that someone isn't able to learn in social situations. There are all kinds of degrees. In its milder forms, some people can learn to blend in better.
Also, don't underestimate the power of beliefs, or the role of self fulfilling prophecies.

Aspergers isn't a death sentence; there are a lot of success stories out there of people with AS who are happy with their jobs and life.

It's not th end of the world if you no longer have the same interests and hobbies you used to have; think of it as an oppurtunity to find new ones.

If you're interested in social sciences, maybe take an evening course in this subject? If you want to improve your social skills, be a waiter or a bartender; you will get plenty of experience talking to people, which is the best way to improve.

Asperger's is not a prison sentence. Nor is it the end end of the world. I'll never understand why people see it, as such.