I'm so angry I think I might self-harm

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today I got back my proposal for a book report and my TA (the hot one I told you about) was overly critical in it. When I went to tutorial today my TA said for us to air into groups of two and write a rough thesis statement for our paper. Then she told me and my partner to go first, and when I stood up in front of the class she said, "Listen up everybody, because this is the one you want to take notes on." After I finished presenting my thesis she said are you sure this is your final statement. Then she said that she felt I was being overly emotional. I felt I was being picked on because she didn't like what I had to say and its pissing me off. I feel realy suicidal about it but I have other thoughts that are not good, I mean very bad thoughts about her. I feel like just cutting my wrist. At least cutting my wrists will release endorphines and I'll feel better. Have you ever seen the episode of House where House is in withdrawal from vicodin and he cuts his wrists to release endorphines to reduce his pain. That sounds like a good idea.

I hate university, I really do, and I hate life.

dont let a TA get you down they are just depressed that they cant be real teachers. you could be teachers pet to if you blew him like she does. life has so much more for you than what that white stained b***h thinks

I have such a splitting headache because of the incident.

Don't do it.

Don't do it. I understand where you're coming from, but don't do it.

As much as it sucks to contemplate....ride it out. You shouldn't do things or make decisions when you are experiencing extremes of emotion whether happy or otherwise.

A bit of advice....channel your frustration and energy into developing a plan or developing a way to look at situations such as the one that you describe in a manner that will help you get through them. I used to have an extremely adversarial, me-versus-the-world attitude. It served me well--I overachieved in damn near everything and absolutely never got tripped up or put off by things that get 99 percent of the general population.

I look back on that period of my life--it lasted about 6 years--and am amazed at how it did not destroy me....but even more than that, I look back and am glad that I adapted the way that I did because had I not done so I would have never gotten as far as I have personally, professionally, or even spiritually. In other words, cultivate a mindset that destroys or minimizes the negatives so that you can preserve and develop the strength that you need to reach your goals, whatever they are.

It sounds like a load of psychobabble BS, I know, but it worked for me. I guess you could say that I got "psyched" enough to get through all of the battles that I was experiencing at the time, which is what led me to win the war in the long run. I much prefer the peace of the present, though!

One day at a time, one step at a time...