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Hi, don't feel like using my real name, but you can call me Miz for now.

I am a 21 year old female, who..well..I've always been different..(Prepare for a huge wall of text. ) I've never fitted in, I've found it really hard to make friends, and I have always been interested in computers and gaming and role-playing, fantasy really. I understand it alot better than I understand real life. My entire friend network is online. I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't feel like such an outcast online. I rarely go out, I eat whatever the hell is fastest so I can get back online and doing what I want to do, I can't concentrate on other things, and I am incredibly creative. I always have been. Online, I feel amazing, I can do what I want, as I have the ability to do so, I can be who I want, as again I have the ability to do so. I am intelligent, but in my areas of interest. I can sit at a computer screen from anywhere from 8 hours to 16 hours a day. If not more if I don't feel like sleeping. I'm obsessed, I have tried to break it, but it nearly breaks me when away. I cannot think, and I cannot communicate as I ramble and am considered rude.

My school life was interesting, my family and I have a difficult relationship. I would like to say because of whatever is wrong with me, or if there is anything wrong with me. We don't click we don't connect. They are focused on their biological son it feels, rather than splitting the time between us. I do not live at home, I live in supported accommodation after being made homeless, I am grateful for the project for letting me live here. I've learnt a few things.

I have come to suspect I have Aspergers Syndrome, and ADHD. The reasons being, I have the hyperactivity of ADHD but with the complete inability to understand others. For example, today I thought a staff member was angry at me, when I asked them they said they were simply busy and were never angry at me. I did nothing wrong, but the way I saw it, from her body language was that she was angry. I've never held friends, it's a lonely existence, but my friends on the net have made it so much easier a million times so.

There are alot more reasons why I suspect I have both but I'd rather not rattle them off right now. I've done my research there is evidence behind my theories. Including a friend of mine, who has Aspergers, telling me to go to the Doctors and speak to them about it, we are nearly identical people in the way we act. He also gets worked up over small things such as people not finishing sentences. My triggers are large crowded places such as supermarkets, I find it hard to go shopping, so I get a set budget of items which is nearly the same each time, I know it comes to the amount of money set so it's okay. Misspelling in roleplay chats (Long story involving the identification system and me actually yelling at someone. Still no idea why I was mad. It irritated me.) and people standing too close to me, THAT freaks me out, I also misdirect anger alot of the time, I have a tendency to assume people are angry at me, if I feel they are and I am in danger, I panic, hyperventilate and need oxygen or medical attention. It's bad. It's really, really bad.

I joined this site after trying to pluck up the courage to actually go to the Doctors, to speak to them, I have an exam tomorrow for a security licence, I don't think I'll pass, might as well give it a shot and plus it's scheduled, I agreed to go.
I am still..really confused over what to say to the Doctors, how to convey my concerns, what's the next step etc.
I live in the UK and I am really worried about what happens next. I want to be able to live my life, but to be honest, I feel no support from the people I need the most right now and it's distressing. I am literally on my own with this.

Please give me your insights as whether you think I have ADHD and Aspergers, or one or the other.
Apologies for the bad grammar. xD

You are most welcome here Miz.

You will find this community to be friendly and caring.

We care about each other.

A special Welkome to WrongPlanet, with a K.

The WP Kink

Hehe sounds good. I was telling my boyfriend about this site, and he was surprisingly understanding about my problems after a small discussion. Happy. :3

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome to the Wrong Planet neighborhood, Miz.

Be welcome here.

To WrongPlanet!! !