unfortunatly, I understand where you're coming from. Ive been writing for 2 years, and I've noticed that if you have talent people dont care. Meanwhile, if you just pull something out of your ass, it gets all the love in the world. People feel you know you're good already and don't care if you get any kind of compliments or criticism. I wont ever quit writing but I do have my times when I just dont write for a couple weeks or even a month. Its kinda like spring cleaning in a way. I just let life take over and lead for a while. There's something many people, even those on this site, don't know what is like. Its like lethargy, feeling like nothing. No matter how hard you try to fit in, or how much effort you put into somehting you love, it means nothing. You try to find a group, an area in life where you belong. Even the group that should accept you wont. Im sorry you too have to live like this, hopefully one day someone will understand, but I know better.