Thinking about quitting counseling...

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Yeah so I gave it a try, and its done nothing for me......I mean sure I learned I for sure have aspergers, but thats about it. None of his ideas for coping with depression work, he's suggested calming my breathing if I'm anxious which I already do but it does not always help. Just seems kind of pointless. Also I don't want my family to be all supportive and crap it only makes me feel more akward and distant, because it feels to me like they act that way because they feel like they have to or something.

On top of that I am going to college to survive(with college grants and loans), not because I actually think I am going to get a degree and become a professional in some field.......that is meaningless to me as well. I hate that we need useless paper or cards with computer data on them in order to survive but we do......I could not keep or get a job so I am in college instead for that reason. I mean counseling is not going to get rid of what I think about the world or how I feel. I feel like everyone around me is playing a stupid game.......and I am smart enough to see it as such, but still trying to play along but becoming so bored that i just can't pretend anymore. Besides If I see this counseler too many more times then thats just one more person to worry about me. I personally don't really care what happens anymore, I don't see why other people can't just get on with their lives.....I'm probably going to 'mess up' my life but its my life right.

Well you definitely sound depressed. It has been my experience that half the therapists out there are not worth seeing. Does your depression relate to your asperger? What I mean is are you depressed ABOUT something or do you just feel bad?

I think you should continue to see this counseler but if that doesn't work maybe you can find one that can help you. The cannabis use won't be a fix for your problems. Do you have a close friend or family that can help you? Have you been feeling this way a long time?

Counseling cannot change how you think or feel about the world. It can give you tools to help you work at changing the way you feel. But it is a lot of work. Nothing comes with out effort.

Your therapist (if you haven't changed yet from the last time I suggested a new therapist) may not be the one for you, or you may be unwilling to do the work. (no offense) Sometimes on top of depression working at recovery seems like an overwhelming thing. With counseling, you get out of it what you put into it. At least keep that in mind. Because if you approach it with the same apathy you describe "I personally don't really care what happens anymore, I don't see why other people can't just get on with their lives.....I'm probably going to 'mess up' my life but its my life right.", then you won't change anything.

I wish you the best Sweetleaf, but only you can make the choice to improve the situation and stop the worry of your loved ones.

I hope you'll consider it.

This reminds me of the many times in life where I have been severely depressed. Counseling can range from a waste of time to helpful. I agree with hyperbole that counseling is a two-way street, and it is work, that is you really have to "work through it".
Unfortunately if you can't see the purpose of ANYTHING anymore and EVERYTHING seems wrong and screwed-up and seems like you can't remember when it wasn't like that--that is clinical depression. The other thing I noticed from your posts is the fact that you say you can't function, seem detached, and seem to have this impending sense of doom--that is also clinical depression, especially when it is pervasive and long-lasting. This kind of depression is a biological problem.
If you are truly thinking and feeling this way then you need to be on some medication because your brain is not working right. I'm not saying that to be mean but I know the experience, I'm now 39 but I've struggled with severe depressions for about 22 years or so (obviously not all at once and yes I'm okay now) and my concern would be that if feel much worse you will have a hard time finding the energy to get some help. Taking medication won't fix your problems, but it will get your brain working better so you can work through your problems.

please see a doctor and consider getting on some medication and going from there, you don't want this to get worse.
I hope I have been helpful to you.

I quit my therapy because I don't have the confidence to deal with the attention I got from seeking help. I was told I really needed therapy but I couldn't feel any positive effects from it and I felt like a waste of their time.