This is exhausting.

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It's so effing tiring to have 3 people crammed into your head along with some guy trying to get you killed (or just keep you miserable) and then have two more following you around. It's weirder that none of this is even effing real! Each one is a mere figment of my imagination, as much as I wish it wasn't true. I am ALONE. I do not which is more infuriating. the fact that no one is here or that I feel that I'm not alone when I am.

I have one damn friend in this world, and I'm pretty sure either that or the fact that I miss her like crazy has in pretty damn infatuated with her, so not being able to see her is like a stab in the effing heart. I cannot stand anymore pain, but I will anyway. Maybe I'm starting to ENJOY being effing depressed and hating everyone.

You know? Screw this, goodbye. I'm sick of all people, you all included. Don't take it personally, though you might as well since I damn well mean it. What help have I gotten here anyway? None. I'm the only one who can stop this shi** anyway. I'm sick of being polite to everyone I meet and them turning on me and treating me like a baby! I AM NOT A GOD DAMN BABY. I'm sick of being nice! So I hate everyone and I hate me for being a b***h, but it's gonna freaking happen!

So screw you life. I'M DONE PLAYING and I'll see you in effing hell. And no, I'm not gonna kill myself. I'm too vain for that, so don't pretend your worried when you couldn't give a rat's ass. It's not like I care anymore about what you think I should do. I'ma do it MYSELF.

And NO. I refuse to apologize if I'm being rude, insensitive and bitchy. Again, no freaking more.

Go ahead, delete this. TRY ME. I freaking dare you. I'm done feeling sorry for myself, so do whatever the hell you want. In fact, I want you to delete it.

My concious says to just stop now that I've gotten that all out. So I'm posting this. Have a lovely effing day people. Or life, I'm OUT.