How plausible is it that I have Asperger's?

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Alright, so I'm 16, a guy. I'm new to this forum, and signed up because I'm investigating the possibly that I have Asperger's. And due to the fact that I was homeschooled until last year and my parents kind of ignored my abnormalities, I'm having to try and decipher what is wrong with me now. I had accepted them as simple differences, and not actual psychological problems myself, until I realized that I have moderate Tourette's syndrome, which I'm now in the process of an official diagnosis. Bear in mind that I know a forum can't replace a doctor, but there's no possibility that I could talk to a doctor, or even my parents about my social and psychological issues. I just need to know with more certainty what is wrong with me.

Ever since I was a young child, I was extremely shy. And not in a mild sense, I mean borderline selective mute, and I still am. I only speak when I'm spoken to in school, and all my friends (I think they could be considered friends, but I'm uncertain) make me well aware that I never talk. I usually only respond when I'm spoken to in very short sentences. I'm pretty sure that I have a significant amount of social anxiety as well, which I dismissed these problems as that for a while. But I noticed that even when I'm calm I still can't think of anything to say. There's so much going on in my head, I suppose I just get lost in that, and it never occurs to me to ever say anything, unless it's triggered by someone talking to me directly. I can't simply interject myself into a conversation, that's a nearly impossible feat.

But this is where I really started to think I have it, and simple social anxiety can't explain my problem. I got drunk with these guys, not wasted, but pretty drunk, to the point I didn't care what I was doing. But I remember even then, I was struggling to think of what to say, and couldn't function in conversation, still only when I'm spoken to directly. I'm pretty much socially ret*d, for the most part.

So that's the social side of my problem, and there's other parts as well. I noticed that things like loud chewing and coughing infuriating me to the point of wanting to strangle the person doing it. I get incredibly pissed off, and I even realize that the anger is irrational and uncalled for, but reason can't change the fact that I have to leave and punch things to release my anger.

I also did "rituals" when I was littler, like different things when I entered a certain room I'd have to do a certain thing, for example. I've now pretty much grown out of that. But I'm often happiest alone, but there's still a great loneliness that haunts me when I'm alone.

Also, I often get on a topic of interest, and can't break from that for a very long time. And when I want something, it's all I can think about till I get it. I have a one track mind, basically.

I can't think of all of the symptoms I've procured over my research, but lastly I consider myself a logical and rational person in almost every way. I apply logic and reason to almost everything I do.

So, do you think I have Aspergers? Also keep in mind, I don't wanna portray myself as one of those people who look online and think they have a bunch of stuff, exaggeratedly. These things, most prominently the social issues, hinder my life in a significant way that I really struggle with. But at the same time I have this almost irrational love for life that I don't consider common in people with barely any friends and so much loneliness. Sometimes alone on my computer I'm almost in an ecstatic state.

Any comment or advice would be appreciated.

You could have AS or classic autism, but I detect some Obsessive Compulsive Disorder there also. Were you born socially impaired or did you experience any childhood trauma of any kind?

http://www.dsm5.org/ProposedRevisions/P ... px?rid=97#

This link should help you out.

http://www.autreat.com/dsm4-autism.html

That's info for Autistic Disorder. Let me know if you have any questions.

Sounds like it's quite plausible, to me.

Thanks for the info guys. One thing that I don't quite understand in the Autistic and Aspies is, do you guys WANT to make friends and socialize, or no? Because I definitely want friends, and to be able to socialize in a relaxed and easy manner. Most definitely I want a girlfriend. When I get a crush on a girl it kills me, it's such torture. I can't even dream of approaching them or actually talking, because I wouldn't know what to say. Even if I did, I couldn't say it. But I can talk online completely fine, which strikes me as odd. I guess it's just the extra time you get to think about what to say online that makes the difference.

But anyway, I read your guys' links and I'm fairly sure I do have some level of Asperger's (or possibly Autism). But the problem is, I cannot tell my parents. I think they think my social life is decent. I mean they know I'm shy, but I don't talk about feelings, emotions, significant problems, or anything deep with anyone. Only online via text. Even email my parents would be impossible. It's just off limits to me, I can't do it. But if I did get diagnosed, is there anything the doctors could even do? I really want help, maybe a therapist or something, but I just can't talk about this stuff.
Obviously there's no easy option, but any advice?

EDIT: Oh and ASPERAMBER. Not that I can think of. I lived an isolated and I guess simple childhood. All I had to socialize with is my brother and parents, who I could talk to pretty easy, but I can't talk to my brother anymore without anxiety.