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Hello. I am a person who has recently (within the last year and a half) diagnosed with ASD/Asperger's Syndrome. For most of my life (28 years to date,) I have suffered from depression and anxiety, but it was not until recently that I was diagnosed with AS. As a lonely nerd with a penchant for video games, history, science and leftist politics, I finally felt a desperate need to seek out some form of community in the hopes of obtaining relationships with human beings that might bring me solace. For the past 10-odd years I had been content to simply hide from the world, and I still feel most at peace in isolation, yet paradoxically recently began to desperately desire human contact. Hence my presence here. I have been accused of being an excellent writer and wielder of sharp wit, but only by family and internet forum users, as my ability to communicate degrades dramatically in the presence of others. I hereby submit this message with stiff, formal language and proper capitalization.

In spite of the deliberate and calculated stoicism of this post's tone, I hold a deep and abiding passion for several things which I am unable to express publically for fear of shaming myself (I tend to avoid social situations for fear of shaming myself in some way,) including robots (not the real kind whose functions are beyond my ability to comprehend, but the unrealistic, oversized variety,), video game music, history, genealogy, science (despite a woeful lack of formal instruction in any scientific field,) as well as myriad other subjects.

I am a consistently indecisive lifelong student, further shamed by the successes of family members of a similar age, and my primary pastimes include playing video games, reading, browsing the internet, and hiding my true self and feelings from near all people.

Welcome to WP!

While my own philosophy as to forum posting demands I limit the number of replies I make, I assume by default that this will be the only one, so you have my thanks.

Welcome to WP. You have a PM.

G'day from down under.

I like the way you introduced yourself. I also default to communicating by writing in a formal style.

I enjoy many of the same things. I am the family historian, and I like relating our family history to things the nieces and nephews are doing in school. It helps me to relate to people, especially NTs, if I can do it through some common interest.

I actually work in music, with robots, albeit the "practical" kind. Geekery in design and programming stage lighting is especially fun if I get to use a few dozen moving lights. Many features of ASD are "unfair advantages" in my work.

I try not to compare myself to relatives of any age, but sometimes I can't help feeling inadequate when a cousin shows off their new house and cars. I am the only one to follow my father into an Engineering-like profession. No one else is geeky enough. I also see the shallowness of their studies and interests, and it reminds me to enjoy the depth and breadth of my geek-ness. I have learned far more on my own than in school. I remember that Frank Zappa said something like, "If you want a piece of paper, go to college. If you want education, go to the library."

I try not to think of it as hiding from nearly all people. I like to think of it as 'quality over quantity,' or 'not casting pearls before swine.'

Welkome to WP

Mick

That was intresting to read, I don't usually post in this forum because I am fairly convinced I suck at greetings and am more likely to scare people away or something. Anyways welcome to the site.

I loved your thread title.

Welcome.

Welcome!

Welcome to Wrong Planet!