Suicidal yet again

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Ive come to a point in my life where everyone I meet online offline and every plane between seem to delight in screwing me repeatedly. I moved away from home to escape my abusive family and ive landed in another abusive situation in my student accommodation.
Im alone and I feel as if this is hell. If I were by some strange turn to discover that I have in fact died and this is hellfire I would not be surprised. I feel as if everything I experience is contrived to cause me pain. I feel as if my God has abandoned me along with everyone else.
I just dont know if I can continue .

ask for a private room. it may cost a little more, but would be worth it for peace of mind.

Just hold on. I know it seems like it won't end but it will, and there is always something to look forward to. There are people who would miss you if you were gone... if no one else, I would. Even though I've never met you before, I want you to stay.

Ask for help from the college - counsellors or dean of students or whoever seems appropriate. If they aren't the right person, they should know who is the right person. They have a duty of care towards their students, and it sounds like you're in danger at the moment. You really need to talk to someone and let them help you see that there are other options out there for you, rather than just give up. They might have a very easy solution, for all you know.