Odd one out

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I suppose a lot of you might be able to relate to me which is why I'm writing here. I don't know if I have Aspergers or such but I do feel like I'm the odd one out a lot of the time.
I feel like I don't need friends in my life - I feel like they're just hassle and a hindrance to me. I have plenty of things I want to do with my time on this planet and having lots of friends and close family around me isn't on the list but I feel bad for this - the people I have told this too think it's unusal. I do have a boyfriend who is very close to his family but I don't understand it. I'm not interested atall in what my brothers, sister or parents get up to really - I don't mind saying hello to them now and again but that's about it.
I have a son and have been a single parent since I was 19.
I don't like to have visitors over to the house either - it feels like an invasion of my privacy and really makes me anxious and stressed out even if I don't have to do much. I hate the thought of people taking up my time when I didn't invite them too - especially when most of them talk rubbish and gossip - I hate talking gossip and I socialise more with men than females because of the females gossiping nature (I am female).

Do any of you have these sort of feelings?

Yes, I am a lot like you! I do care somewhat about what my siblings do though-- but not as much as I should.

I need company, but struggle to find something that fits. If I talk to "normal" people I often wind up among people with more social energy than I could ever hope to have. If I talk to an "alternative" crowd I often wind up among people with mental and emotional issues that go way beyond a harmless diagnosis and I become the therapist, the pincushion, or the entertainer and lose energy even faster. It's a work in progress.

I definitely don't need it for the sake of it, which I think is about what you're getting at.