Aspie, Outcast, Scapegoat, and the Unloved one.

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As the title suggests this is me. I am NomadMan31 and I am a white male who lives in South Africa.

I have been reading on this forum for hours(forgot how many) and I would like to tell you guys my story as an Aspie.

On average everyday I am ignored in class at school. Yes, even if I am good looking and fit and have all the shots going for me.

I have tried for 5 years now to get a girlfriend and really connect with someone, but for some reason Girls just hurt me and cause emotional damage. I am either rejected instantly or just turned away like an unsuccessful, unreliable product in the supermarket. I have been accused of stalking just because I walk silently in the hallways even my best friend says I am dead silent when walking and schoolmates have presumed me to be 'Magical'. I just don't understand why I am so unloved by people. I mean I am a really really nice person who cares about others more than himself but struggles to show it on some occasions and few people know that. I have an obsession with Video games and modding them and want to become a Games Developer one day. I am a very quiet person and not paid attention to when talking to others. Other obsessions include 'sharing things' and 'equality' and 'have to stay on the move'

I also hold very high respect and regard for females and their beautiful form despite their treatment towards me. I am advocate of 'respect in romantic relationships to highest regard and level' and also to an extent naturism(nudism whatever we are all natural human beings here)

I have been targeted by classmates and girls and their goal is simply to 'dispose of me once and for all' because I am different and a waste of space to them. I have also been wrongly accused by teachers and is usually, if always the scapegoat in class.

I have been called crazy, I am frowned upon for doing normal things, I help others when possible and if possible. I am also intelligent and well dressed, but I have received criticism for saying things without thinking. And I am very creative too.

I feel as if I don't belong in any society or group. I am also a drifter at school as well, to support the statement.

And that's it, that's who I am. And no one gives damn. Life's a b*tch and I have to face the world alone. SOLO. but I would very much like friends who are like me and I would appreciate it very much too.

By the Way I also have a 'Leave no friend behind policy'.

Sorry to hear about that...I think it's a rather familiar story, but school doesn't last for ever.
But these reactions can't be happening spontaneously - for instance, do you know why you were called "crazy"?

Anyway, if you'll fit in and belong anywhere it's likely to be here.

Thank you for your opinion, Sir.
I also give attention to people who need it.
That's a good thing.

You seem like a nice person. You resemble me to quite some extent.
I'd like it very much to interact with you.

This is my email (if you're interrested):
'olaf-9@hotmail.com'

Ps: As the previous poster said, school will get over, and there is always a person or group you can feel at ease with.