Have I finally cracked?

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My mood has been out of control the last few days. It changes by the hour. I'm depressed, fidgety, pacing, crying, laughing, hopeful, uplifted, suicidal, shaky, confused, exhausted. I don't know what the hell is going on. I've been trying to ignore it but it's not working for me.

Go to the doctor.

It's Sunday. I can only go to the ER and I don't want to go there.

Do you have an urgent care center near you?

If not then go on Monday.

I've experienced something like this in mid 2010.
The sooner you go the the doctors and get help the better off you will be in the long run.

The only urgent care centre is the ER and I don't want to go there.

Can't say if you've cracked,could be something you ate resently bad food wreaks havic with my head; if you have a Health food store or a GNC close by Relora and a B-complex vitamin would take the edge off until you can get to a doctor.

Technically here the in the U.S. urgent care is different from ER, as in they don't have all the stuff of ER.

Then schedule appointment ASAP on Monday.

Ok, thanks. I'll deal with it.

Last edited by Raleigh on 10 Jan 2015, 11:44 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Sounds like your blood sugar could be too low. (Hypoglycaemia - google it) eat some carbohydrate and protein, drink some orange juice and see if you feel better in half an hour.

Ok, I'll try that too. Thanks.

I'm not feeling any better. I'm going to the ER. Won't have any reception in there so I'll see you when I see you. Thanks for all your help.

Hope all goes well there. Will be thinking of you. Let us know when you can that you are ok. All the best.

Could it be an anxiety attack from thinking about returning to your workplace after the new year? Just that it's worse on the the Sunday before you start work again.

Dear Raleigh,

I once (not too long in the past, but not too near either) had this very same feeling. Then something amazing happened. Completely by coincidence a random online post prompted me to look up something I had never even heard of before, ie Dabrowski's theory of Positive Disintegration.

I read the wiki page with great concentration and it totally, 100% saved me. It reassured me, gave a framework to understand what the hell is going on, and that indeed there is a way out.

Please, please look it up. The link is here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Positive_Disintegration

I am hoping it helps you and maybe even saves you like it saved me. Ironically, I then started googling on this theory I'd never heard of, and found that it is mainly used with regards to Autistic people. Back then, I had no awareness of being autistic myself and was even feeling a bit disappointed that there was no information on how it applied to 'normal people like myself'. Oh the irony when then some time later I learned what AS really means and the penny dropped, and now I've been officially diagnosed.

Please, please, please read the whole thing. Do PM me if you wish to. Things really can get better.

Dear Raleigh, part 2

Please don't make ANY rash decisions now. Try and calm yourself down. I know what it feels like to be completely suicidal but please take it from me those feelings will pass.

My friend once got into a state like this in a public place and got committed, and sadly her life was ruined - not sure what did it the most: the drugs they zombified her with; the humiliation of the degrading place she was locked up in for years; or the brainwashing that this whole experience gave her in making her believe she was inferior and needed 'help' from the crazy institution of psychiatry.

I was close to being committed just a month ago, because I went for an AS diagnosis referral. Read my horror story by searching for 'my kafkaesque/orwellian diagnosis nightmare' here on WP.

I have spoken with a few trusted psychologists (one of my best friends is a trained psychologist whose job was for years diagnosing people in mental institutiond) and they all have confirmed what I realised to be true - i.e. the psychiatry department itself is crazy and unhealthy -- I know it's ironic, but...it rarely helps. At best it can pacify someone and make them a zombie for life like they did to my friend, who still lives in a physical sense but everything that made her 'her' is gone. And this is the best case scenario. That said, perhaps a short term committing experience might not totally wreck up someone's life; my friend was locked up for years from age 18 onwards so vulnerable age for the brainwashing that she 'needs' the 'help' of the sick institution of psychiatry.

Please PM me as I have found many alternative helpful solutions that have gotten me over the few times when i genuinely thought I was either going to kill myself or be locked up. I managed to avoid both fates, against the odds, and if there is any way I can help you I would really, really want to do that. If you PM me we can even chat online or something.

Don't make any rash decisions -- and if you need to talk to a mental health professional try and make it a therapist, preferably private, who is not a psychiatrist, because all psychiatry wants to do is to destroy what is unique about you. I mean I almost got committed a month ago tho I am now mentally stable (due to daily self work, of which I can tell you in private), just because I wear bright eccentric clothes and talk fast. I'm not making this up. But I was officially diagnosed this week with AS and ADHD and the psych who diagnosed me was horrified at how I'd been misdiagnosed.

I have gone through something similar recently. I felt really anxious and my mood was extremely erratic. I went to the ER and spoke to a psychiatrist. I was convinced I was having a psychotic episode but the psychiatrist was quite certain that I was suffering from anxiety rather than anything more serious. It felt really, really bad but after some sleep and relaxation I started to feel better. I really hope you feel better soon. It becomes much easier when you can share these feelings with someone else.