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ZombieBrideXD
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25 Mar 2018, 11:54 pm

i am so tense this week its driving me insane, im always on the verge of meltdown, my hands are jittery and it is making it very hard to type so i apologize if things get wonky.

i cant take this anymore. my patience is thinning. i think my work is getting to me because i cant handle things at home anymore. the increased stressed has increased my tinnitus and my skills are fading...

work is suffering, home life is suffering,i am suffering. i cant do this. i feel so close to breaking and its tearing me down.

i have been considering leaving work but there are so many cons.

pros to leaving work.
- i can rest and reorganize my life

cons
- my coworkers and boss like having me there and do not want me to leave.
- i would loose my money
- my whole schedual would be ruined causing me more meltdowns.
- i would loose the sense of purpose this job gives me
- i actually enjoy my job

i feel like im letting everyone i work with down. i pushed myself too far and now im feeling the consequences. i feel so tense and unhappy and uneasy i absolutely hate it.


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26 Mar 2018, 4:10 pm

If you stop working, would you feel better?

Sometimes a little holiday break can make the trick, or give you the time to think with distance.



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26 Mar 2018, 4:10 pm

If you stop working, would you feel better?

Sometimes a little holiday break can make the trick, or give you the time to think with distance.



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26 Mar 2018, 4:13 pm

ZombieBrideXD wrote:
i am so tense this week its driving me insane, im always on the verge of meltdown, my hands are jittery and it is making it very hard to type so i apologize if things get wonky.

i cant take this anymore. my patience is thinning. i think my work is getting to me because i cant handle things at home anymore. the increased stressed has increased my tinnitus and my skills are fading...

work is suffering, home life is suffering,i am suffering. i cant do this. i feel so close to breaking and its tearing me down.

i have been considering leaving work but there are so many cons.

pros to leaving work.
- i can rest and reorganize my life

cons
- my coworkers and boss like having me there and do not want me to leave.
- i would loose my money
- my whole schedual would be ruined causing me more meltdowns.
- i would loose the sense of purpose this job gives me
- i actually enjoy my job

i feel like im letting everyone i work with down. i pushed myself too far and now im feeling the consequences. i feel so tense and unhappy and uneasy i absolutely hate it.



I'm really sorry to hear you feel this way. That sounds horrible. I'm glad you're letting it out here.

There probably is a solution, but "it's darkest before dawn."



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26 Mar 2018, 4:33 pm

You literally put words on what I am going through too, and on my feelings... what I could not do like you do.

Unfortunately, I may not take any single day off to rest and breathe, and I would need one week at least.



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27 Mar 2018, 8:22 am

Do you have a doctor and could get FMLA from work?

My friend received 8 weeks off from work due to anxiety.

http://employment.findlaw.com/family-me ... ility.html

Hope you feel better!

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I'm actually in the same overwhelmed boat as you.



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27 Mar 2018, 1:49 pm

There is law, theory,... and practice with its consequences.

I could go and see a shrink, after five minutes, only seeing my breathe difficulties and how I attack myself with my fingers, all consequences of my anxiety due to stress at work, I would get 6 month paid at home... but no more job at the end, i'm sure.