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Fos11
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25 Nov 2018, 3:25 pm

Sometimes i just want to hurt myself, no matter how. Sometimes i just beat myself at the head, or often times i cut myself. Sometimes i do not harm myself but others. I even drank several times shampoo and soap, because i wanted to die, or atleast hurt myself very badly. But it failed. I even tried to choke myself, first with bare hands, then with a piece of cloth. One time i passed nearly out. The quedtion is why do i love to hurt myself? Why do i want to beat myself, cut myself kill myself, choke myself, and why do i love expieriencing pain? Is jt because of my depression? Or is it because of autism? Why do i crave pain? Why do i feel good when i am hurting myself?



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25 Nov 2018, 4:05 pm

Personally I do it because it helps distract me from the emotional pain I feel which is worse than the physical pain.



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25 Nov 2018, 4:11 pm

I was hospitalized once too because of self harm.



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25 Nov 2018, 4:16 pm

I was twice put in the hospital and then in the crisis center for trying to overdose on pills.



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04 Dec 2018, 10:03 am

It could be that it's a control thing; a lot of people who self harm (or used to, like myself) felt they had control over something. It could be a sensory seeking behavior, as well.



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08 Dec 2018, 10:27 pm

Fos11 wrote:
Sometimes i just want to hurt myself,Sometimes i do not harm myself but others. I even drank several times shampoo and soap,I even tried to choke myself, One time i passed nearly out. The quedtion is why do i love to hurt myself? Why do i want to beat myself, cut myself kill myself, choke myself, and why do i love expieriencing pain? Is jt because of my depression? Or is it because of autism? Why do i crave pain? Why do i feel good when i am hurting myself?

Stop trying to choke yourself to death for a start, as you'll just wind up causing yourself mental anxiety and stress everyone out, once you have accomplished this, find a nice place where you can isolate yourself from the chaos and make room for one sensory thing at a time, you r not invincible but not shell proof either. Society is unforgiving at times, so you need to find your own niche and fit in wherever possible to make your life easier, not worse.



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09 Dec 2018, 6:18 pm

Fos11 wrote:
Sometimes i just want to hurt myself, no matter how. Sometimes i just beat myself at the head, or often times i cut myself. Sometimes i do not harm myself but others. I even drank several times shampoo and soap, because i wanted to die, or atleast hurt myself very badly. But it failed. I even tried to choke myself, first with bare hands, then with a piece of cloth. One time i passed nearly out. The quedtion is why do i love to hurt myself?

If you do not know the answer, strangers on the internet also do you not know


Why do i want to beat myself, cut myself kill myself, choke myself, and why do i love expieriencing pain?

Not intended as model answer:. Sadomasochism (just a guess. Based on the information pprovided, there is no method of knowing)

Is jt because of my depression?

Not everyone clinically depressed, mutilates. But some do.

Or is it because of autism?

Same as depression

Why do i crave pain? Why do i feel good when i am hurting myself?



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09 Dec 2018, 6:29 pm

The short answer is that it is due to stress.

In primatology self-harm is called self-injurious behavior (SIB) and is associated with anxiety. The single most common denominator among animals who self-harm is isolation — social isolation. Primates bite themselves, parrots pull out their feathers and dogs and cats lick themselves. Such self-injurious behavior tends to occur in emotionally disturbing situations, particular those over which the individual has little or no control (like being locked up alone).

Stress can cause tail biting in swine or self-mutilation in monkeys. Tail biting in pigs is an abnormal behavior whereby a pig uses its teeth to bite, chew or orally manipulate another pigs's tail. Tail biting typically occurs under the following stressors: indoor facility with a high density of pigs housed in a confined area (like a pen); lack of a substrate material; poor ventilation system, or poor feed quality and accessibility. In another case rhesus macaques monkeys displayed self biting behavior. They repeatedly bite part of their own bodies while intermittently showing signs of intense excitation such as threatening, trembling, head jerking and piloerection. The stressor in this case was the stress from relocation and isolation.

Bonobo apes were observed to pull their hair out leaving patches of hairless skin. I searched for an answer, and ran across the story of a bonobo mother who actually pulled her child’s hair out. She did it for so long that the hair stopped growing back. This was not aggression, but “grooming gone wild”. Grooming is nature’s self-soothing strategy. Animals groom others as well as themselves, and that builds soothing social bonds. When the going gets tough, mammals groom. Many repetitive behaviors are variants on grooming. The behavior may get repeated endlessly if a mammal has a persistent sense of threat.

Intelligent species of parrots often pull out their own feathers when they are very unhappy. Known causes include loneliness and isolation from other parrots to interact with, stress from loud noises or not turning lights off at night, and boredom from not having enough to do in their cages (toys, climbing areas, room to move around).

King snakes will eat their own tail if they are stressed by overheating.

Given that social isolation, stress and anxiety are the triggers and main reason for self-injury, reducing stress and increasing time spent with others would be the most effective. Massage solves both and has demonstrated effectiveness for a wide range of conditions.


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10 Dec 2018, 7:20 pm

Hmm, that paragraph certainly seems true of the natural world turning in on its own self and climate change affects all species including those most in the higher primates. Our growing population becomes one with the other masses when stress absorbance echoes loudly to signal collapse or failure, from dehydrating figures prone to sensory arrest. Some monkey groups opt for smoking or biting their skin and parrots pull out their feathers and balding gorilla's and giant beasts have their Teeth ache. Who's there to sedate them when they need the op?
If I had a tail I'd want to look after it and get my pearlies whitened.
I'm fairly sure it's fine to shed human skin once in a while lol as it is just human behaviour but whilst eating and shedding some skin is fine, some conditions are permanent fixtures and can't be undone.



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16 Dec 2018, 6:52 pm

Is this more common when you are stressed?



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16 Dec 2018, 6:59 pm

:(
I wish it were not so.