Seeking insight regarding gender & sexuality

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I am not exactly sure of what I am. Given the long list of identified identities, I am hoping someone will recognize my traits and point me in a direction that I can look into. Thank you for your consideration.

I am biologically male.

I have no desire to maintain any gender identity- to present myself as masculine or feminine, thus end up appearing very masculine due to lack of maintenance. I have no drive towards making myself attractive and don't really have a sense of what that would look like if I did.

My sex drive is present but ill defined. I'm generally drawn towards women, but possibly out of encultured bias.

My physicality and partner bias contradicts what I think is my desired sexual role. Going back to early childhood, I've identified more with the traditional female sexual (I don't know what the word is, role? posture?). Being in the more invasive sexual position is really offputting to me and contradicts my more submissive, nurturing personality.

I bear my genitiles no ill will, but were I to find the ideal partner, my biology would be the opposite of what I would want.

Is it possible to be of a male social-gender presentation and a female biology and desire a partner of a female social-gender presentation and Male biology? I would imagine that finding a compatible partner would be a challenge.

No idea of where to start.

Sexuality is who you are attracted to. Your sexual preference is for females,

Gender is the sex you wish to identify as. This may be hidden by any number of issues, including the executive function of autism. Or, like many males, you just want an attractive female who wants you exactly the way you are.

I know some people don't like them, but I really like the concepts of "gendervague" or "autigen" to describe myself and I have some similarities to you in terms of my gender identity being a little bit undefined and my gender a bit "there by default." (i.e. I dress more masculine partly because I like it but partly because not putting much effort in is often perceived as more masculine, and I mostly use female pronouns because that's what I've grown up with, and I don't feel a need to switch.)

This makes sense for me, but not for some others. Your opinions may vary...

Sex is your biological function in human reproduction. Your body is either Male (sperm donor), Female (egg donor and incubator), Hermaphrodite (physical aspects of both; may be infertile), or Neuter (infertile; may or may not have sexual organs).

Gender is your subjective perception of your own sexuality in relation to others. This part is complicated.

• Lesbian - Female body, attracted to women
• Gay - Male body, attracted to men
• Bi - Male or female body, attracted to both men and women
• Trans - Born as one sex, purposely altered to another sex.
• Queer - Questioning / Uncertain. Sometimes a catch-all category for those who don't identify as L, G, B, or T.
• Asexual - You have no interest in sex, you have no sex drive, or you feel ambiguous about the subject of sex and gender.

Complicated, because Facebook now allows a total of 71 gender options for its members. Most of these seem to be duplicates of each other, so assume what you will. Link to article in The Telegraph

Before anyone starts bagging on me for posting something they don't agree with, bear in mind that due to often conflicting and subjective claims, I am forced to try to understand all of this "Alphabet Soup" on my own.

Thank you for the replies. "Gender-vague" does resonate with me quite a bit. I feel like there's a lot more to say, but I just don't have the words.

I appreciate your consideration.

A lot of times people focus on dysphoria (feeling wrong about body or gender) when it comes to gender identity. Except some trans people don’t have any dysphoria! It can be confusing when nothing feels “wrong” but nothing feels quite right either.

I like to focus on gender Euphoria. That is feeling really good about a certain gender experience. You can try different ways of expressing yourself and different pronouns and maybe one will feel really good. Don’t worry if things shift and change over time. It’s completely normal and healthy. It might also take time to find out what fits best so maybe you will define yourself a certain way for awhile until you discover something that fits better.

You may be non binary (can’t be defined as male or female alone), agender (without a specific gender), gender queer (any expression of gender that just doesn’t fit the traditional views of gender) or some other gender expression. I think it’s really great to explore that and see what feels good to you. It might even turn out that you feel more comfortable as a woman who just happens to wear masculine clothing. Or maybe once you find your sense of style things will change. Whatever it is that feels the most right to you.