I have taken an adult dance class the last couple of years at the local studio where my daughter dances.
It has been really great to get back into it though I was definitely nervous at first though.
I wanted to make sure it was a place that was about having fun with where we are now not desperately trying to mold us back into some “So You think you can dance” star. Thankfully it’s what I found.
Though I’ll admit I am still debating whether or not to sign up again. Had a hard time with my mental health last year and started pulling back to preserve emotional energy, then had a shoulder injury (not dance related) and was in recovery. Finally I found my way to an autism diagnosis. While it has been a positive game changer it is still fresh; so trying to navigate how much of myself needs some extra space for emotional load of it all verse dance for some social fun, and physical activity.
Stranger still for me is that the teacher literally teaches “a chance to dance” sessions for kids with various disabilities including noticeable neurodivergence.
Some part of me wants to confide in her and the other part is yelling that I have masked long enough in her presence that somehow it would need all this justification for why Now I need the softness.
But you know obviously I also needed it before (see afore mentioned major mental health hit last year- before I had a word for my cosplaying as human and thus didn’t recognize the added toll that the masking was having on Everything!!)