Being bullied

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Hey everyone, this is my first post on wrongplanet.net (Sorry for bad grammar, my first language isn't english)
What I wanted to talk about was my experience being bullied in school for over a decade.

Only recently in my life, have my parents (mom) been suspecting I have aspergers, and it would be very weird if I didn't have it. Ever since I was six I have been bullied, teased, made fun of, embarrassed and more by the people in my grade, classmates, and in my school. It's still really hard on me even though I graduated about a month ago. I still dream of being bullied, my bullies and more. I have a really hard time during social situations, being around my family, friends, and strangers is really tough and difficult for me, so I usually just keep to myself everyday also when I was in class. There was and never has been a reason for my bullying, people have just hated me all my life.

I have been bullied for being myself, being me, existing as the person I am by all the other kids in my grade other then the very few friends I have and like one person in the other class. Once I was made fun of for the way I saved a ball from going into a goal. I can't be myself around others without being made fun of, being rediculled for existing. I started having really bad social problems when I was around 11-12 years old. From that point on, I couldn't even stand without being scared that I would be made fun of, same with walking and talking (and more).

I started wanting to go to school less, and less, especially around grade eight and would say to my mom I was sick even though I wasn't, because going to school was so hard, and tiring for me.

I'm sorry you haven't gotten replies for this post yet. Perhaps other didn't know what to say.

I am wondering if you are drawing attention because people find something about you that is naturally interesting. Then when you do not act the way they are expecting, they turn malicious. This is a common behavior among neurotypical people.

I used to have a friend who was handsome. He was a quiet, nerd type, but he looked like a male model. I think it bothered him a lot to have so much attention from people. He grew his hair out to cover his face, but his hair was glossy and beautiful and that only made it worse.

It may have been something like this with you. These other people may see you as some kind of cool guy who has it all together and just needs to take things less seriously. Is there a way for you to find out why they were targeting you? It might help give you insight as you go into your adult life now.

My younger brother tried to pick fights with me. He taught me how to fight! More importantly, I learned the art of defense in a fist fight. I had the advantage of being quick and cross dominant. Many of us seem to be cross dominant.
I was tiny and I learned that teachers would look the other way if I was able to defend myself.

My wife was also picked on as she was also small. A white girl in a place where there were few whites.

Hi there. I can honestly relate--I was verbally bullied and isolated--as most of my peers, especially female peers, would bully me because I liked "boy" things like Sonic, Mario Bros. and dinosaurs when I was growing up. For some reason, my other interests like Disney Princesses never made it to their list of reasons of good or relatable things about me.

My friend groups moving forward were mostly male, and I never had a problem with it until I reminded myself this was due to me being isolated. Eventually, both parties perceived me as "weird", so friendless it's been since--but the less friends I had the more I had time to really accept myself outside my privacy.

Notwithstanding the bullying, I loved myself and prided myself for just existing indoors. Outdoors, I took on some of the personalities I noticed were popular with my peers. That made me a little miserable and "empty"; I wanted to be myself and I did, no matter tertiary reception.

It's okay.

I believe deviating from our social nature and being at peace with oneself is a better treat for the soul. Listen to some music, pop those headphones in; draw or look at, think about, or imagine things you like; and pay attention to bullies' motives and "attack patterns" : they hurt what discomforts their social dogmas and reminders of how happier someone else is!

You've got this; strength's in all of us.

That sucks that you were bullied just for being your unfiltered, unvarnished self...they need to be more enlightened!! Though I suppose that's a VERY tall order for kids. I can only hope that neurodiversity awareness programs will be more promoted in schools, and that the parents of NT kids will instill the virtues that these folks are OK, it's OK for them to be different, etc.
But even then, it's quite an uphill struggle.
There's something lighting up in the more primal / tribal / hive-mind that leads to this sort of repugnant behaviour, when if anything, they should be commending you for navigating through your struggles, offering encouragement.
Yes, I'm sounding like a bit of a utopian idealist, but I know I won't be made fun of for it here

In any case: I can't believe they were so petty as to make fun of you for stopping a ball from going into the goal!! I mean who frikkin' cares HOW you stopped it, just the fact you prevented the other team from scoring should be good enough.

I will also add to this that sports are a virtual no-go zone for folks on the spectrum. We tend to very clearly stick out like the proverbial sore thumb in team sports, and may be treated harshly for it.

It does seem like young males are virtually conscripted into sport in some settings, and you invite scorn and contempt if you don't go into it. (Or, at least have some cursory knowledge of sporting stats and MVPs and so forth - which has never really interested me.)

I avoided sports for the sake of my safety, as I could easily see some meathead bully type intentionally launching a sporting projectile at me, claiming it was an accident, running into me and claiming it was an accident, etc., etc...

As far as I'm concerned, an "Aspie" trying to join a sports team of NTs is like a Jew trying to infiltrate a skinhead chapter.

Welcome to wrong Planet , and your bullying you experience seems to be a commom one for us Aspies myself included even primarily from family too , on the Whole.
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