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You'll see veteran next to my nickname.
- I apologize to each of you if my posts are either long or difficult to understand.
*I sincerely apologize.
I have severe depression, so I'll struggle to interact.
*Some of my replies may be very short.
- I've read several of your posts and noticed that many of you aren't feeling well: I struggle with instinctive empathy, but I have rational empathy, and I've helped several people with serious family problems.
I think I'm a very empathetic person.
In fact, I'm always there for those I care about.
Few words: when necessary, but plenty of concrete facts.
This makes me proud: I think the primary purpose of every human being is to help others.
How can that be?
In my various phases here, I think, I haven't communicated as well as I could.
*I'm truly sorry, because I care so much.

I have an avoidant personality, so I struggle to stay in one place for long.
Or at least communicate.
In Italian, I used to sculpt my posts, making them essential. Sorry, I'm having some difficulty here.
*In case you still accept my presence (I haven't bored you, after all).

In the last month, I realized I didn't know how to interact in the replies.

*And that on the other side, there were really interesting people.

I've been through a kind of hell throughout my life.

And my character has emerged as a bit closed.

A lot, really.
I always admit my responsibilities, I usually apologize, I'm often very kind to people, every person is a special being, sometimes fragile.
I always take this into account.

Except for several personal peculiarities, which have been more of a detriment than a help (except for intuition), the rest are a myriad of deficits.
I have level 2 autism.
I have Asperger's.
Intj.
I've always had an instinctive passion for numbers, figures, statistics, and various other things.
I was a hikimori.
I had a high IQ according to tests.
Now, honestly, I don't know anymore: I haven't taken tests in 12 years.
In Italy, there's a sort of sister forum to this one.
Since 2011.
I had collaborated.
I have a friend I no longer know anything about.
I tend to use logic a lot; I sometimes appear very cold.
Over the years, I've always tended to relate to allistic (neurotypical) people.
I have to interact with them: but it's very stressful.
Depression aside, and for the beauty of the forum I demonstrate, I hope to be able to stay.
Without even brief interactive feedback, I struggle to understand how to communicate.
*I accept any criticism, I struggle with compliments; I believe that even though each of us is different, we are all unique.
Maybe I won't be able to get it right away, but I'll read and try to answer each of you.

If you want.
Regarding my English, it's also my fault, because I have a great feeling for languages.
So it's my shortcoming.
I think I've thrown away many of my skills.
I've used others to improve.
I've never felt like a child; I've always had this very clear perception.
I'm very loyal and honest.
Sometimes socially naive.

In our country, it's very difficult to get a quick diagnosis, especially for adults (over 18).

The diagnosis should be made at least around 2 years of age.
It works very well in children's centers.
After that, it's really difficult.

-If you accept, I'll be able to start from scratch again.
-I'm not an English speaker: sorry, there will be many mistakes.
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In some regions of Italy, we're very cold and distant.
Then in every region, there are dialects and other languages.
The Italian language is closest to French. It was our written language until 1800, then there was Austrian domination, and three wars of independence.
Not to Spanish; it's not something I've worked on, so it's instinctive (I think), but I can understand several, even if I struggle with writing and speaking.
Now, English schools are predominant, but the good ones are private and everywhere.

Grazie mille

I've only just joined. I worry that I'll bombard the place with my scatter gun approach. I don't know anybody's history here yet. I haven't come to judge people, although sometimes inevitably I will, but I try to reserve judgement. I don't try to reply to everyone, we're only human, I have to step away, and go do the things I need to do in my life, like many people. I edit and re-edit and chop and change and delete my posts while writing them, and still they can end up long. We have so much information to process, so much weighing up of what might be relevant or not, it's not easy, so fully understand the long posts, and also of not always having the energy or capacity to write properly, and our writing might loose some coherence, and be raw and unedited.

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Hi, thanks for the feedback!
Yes.
That's a bit of a problem for me.
But, you know, it's not my language and I have to express a concept in many words.
I'm wrong, obviously.
You write very sensible things: we have the ability to understand that we're doing it, but not to change it instantly. Italian is my second language. So I also lack judgment, and I think you do too. It's just that sometimes (in my opinion) we can repeat the same concept multiple times, or by trying to help (not knowing how: lack of communication), we can unintentionally appear judgmental at all (?).
I'm asking this as a question because I don't really understand what happens in real communication: maybe a concept gets through that neither I nor you think is true, but that gets through...
I also edit, cut, trim, and retouch posts a lot of times before publishing them.
The point is that it's done in good faith.

You know:
frollpoff, you gave me great feedback in your post, thank you!

You know, sometimes I have to write to professionals, lawyers, and you have to be concise in doing so.
But after about an hour, I cut out 90% of the email and communicate.
As they need it.

Many people think: "Okay! You're like this, you'll never change."
But that's not true.
You can definitely succeed in written form.
The next ones will be shorter.

Here's to a fresh start, I know sometimes bad memories can be a trigger.

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Welcome.
Memories: it depends on how we use them.
To change for the better.
I think we can also change our mental attitude and be truly open to new things, to different people.
In some, there's the opposite, a sort of absolute closure.
The other person, the one who appears different to us, is our fortune, the one we don't even deign to glance at.

Hi and Welcome Huckleberryfin ...You write almost like a philosopher. If your usng a translator, it appears to serve you well? Nice to see you here, ,seems I remember seeing your name appear of sme of the threads I had posted to.
My weak point is not coping well with any spell correct programs ? / apps. So consequently , some of the easier words get misspelled alot, Whereas other more important words , come out fine. Hope Italy agrees with you .

Hi Jakki! : thank you

I remember you.

So: I understand English, but I can't write it properly.

I admit this is my shortcoming: English is studied everywhere in Italy these days, but the level is mediocre in public schools.

While there are excellent private schools.
I use several translators, then double-check the sentences if I can: then I don't know if the result is valid in written form!

So: Italy is a nation with a Fascist foundation.

So I'd say no. Many feel superior.

In the region where I live now, there's apparently a lot of tolerance towards people who are different, whether by status, gender, or ability.
Ethnicity. Apparently, ideas and people are welcomed as if they were precious.

But this doesn't correspond to reality.

People who consider themselves different are often isolated.

Clearly, this is a mistaken, reprehensible, and remarkable mental attitude.

Today I saw a couple of kids with a scooter.

A Black boy, I wouldn't know if he was born here, and an Italian girl.

They were a couple: I hope that sooner or later the inequalities will disappear.

All of them. It would be wonderful!

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I noticed that autistic people in Italy really like philosophy: I've read several philosophers during my time in isolation: some things stick with you.
In Italy, we're not doing things well in this regard.

Let's see what happens with the new generations.
We tend to form closed and elitist groups.
It's not good.
There's a lot of room for improvement.
I hope so.
I hope gender differences are eliminated because it's inconceivable that they still exist.
We need laws that enforce them.
I'm embarrassed to see that gender equality is very poor.
And here we are in 2025.
But there are also other things that aren't nice about people with disabilities, and other things that are nice in this regard.

It is fairly u spoken here , but people with easily identifiable disabilities can end up ecperiencing ,extremes of both kindness here and also social Injustice . With our most recent so called recent President Il Duce Trumpe. It has become more rampant here. Most recent circumstances in the USA is to create hate between various social groups/ races.
With what has appeared to me as a intense wish to create devisiveness, between people and groups. It has appeared almost like his political party are constantly creating shocks of one nature or another,yo the public that they claim responsibilty for
in our society disregarding older values of the Country over here. Yes, I do believe many Autistic individuals almost self isolate. Due. to disparities of Understanding of Neuro typical individuals .And Neuro Diverse individuals...Yes it seems
that we all seem to see differences in how people are treating people is just not right.. Hope Italy does progress soon.
Often over in this country Italy is portrayed as a place of expresso and Romance and vineyards. I mention expresso, as over the years, I have the the occassional cappucino, or even black coffee as a small luxury..
Btw : You do quite well for the Assistance with the translators you are using . Must admit initially was concerned if a AI ,Large Language Model Infiltrated (had got on to this site). Judging by the way your writing appeared . No offence intended ,Just a observation.. (I sincerely hope you are not a AI ,please.) As with myself , many aspies do have rather distinctive language and vocabulary that seems to get applied in Normal day to day conversation..Not always the best idea, when communicating with others whom maynot( NTs) it seems to me fall into that catagory.
Am hoping your Translator , does a goid job of interpeting what I have written.... Ciao

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Ciao Jakki !

I'll write you a concise paragraph, otherwise the answer will be very long!
a) In Italy, we know who you are and what values ​​you have, and they are certainly not those of Donald Trump.

b) We love you: very much.

c) I understand what you're writing: there's been a rejection of people considered different here for a long time, but they're wrong; we are people with exceptional qualities.
In addition to the deficits: which the state should have addressed at an early age.

d) We often collaborate in scientific research, even on the autism spectrum, and we're proud of it.
Many scientific researchers in my country have a clear predilection for the USA.

e) I'm not an AI, and I believe it's extremely dangerous to allow it to evolve further.
In Italy, it's been studied for a long time.
Research on the subject is very advanced.

f) Trump seems arrogant.
The USA represents: freedom, innovation, and moral values ​​that are fundamental and exemplary in some states.

US society is diverse: it ranges from the wealthy to the poorest and most defenseless.

g) Government policies in states as fundamental as the USA are decided decades in advance.
We knew since 1981 what would happen (happened now).

h) Italy is portrayed as a romantic nation and in a similar way.
As an Italian, I write to you that we are a very competitive society and the human and romantic side exists only virtually.
I understand that we are different from how we are.

i) I would love to be able to drink a cappuccino or a coffee, but I feel terrible if I do! I have a very strict diet because I feel sick.

l) In a thread I wrote that it would be better for us to be part of the USA as a state.
We feel very good with you.
We have problems, undeniably.
But what nation doesn't have them?
m) We're not good. We've also done horrendous things and exterminated millions of people in various ways.
Including the colonies, we had at least 4.
Now, none.

We also used toxic gas on the population.


n) Yes! I also have a particular vocabulary.
In my second language, which I always use, I notice structural differences in the use of written form.

o)
15 years ago, I was discussing robotics with a researcher friend.
Self-aware robotics and AI.
At the time, few people wrote about it.
He proved several things to me: he was right, and after several posts, I agreed with him, thanking him for making me understand important things.

p) I understand you without a translator, even though I use one because I might make mistakes.
I use them to avoid writing incomprehensible things!

q) You know the funny thing? They called me the alien at school.
Or: you're a computer.

Of course: it bothered me.
And science has shown that human beings reason differently from computers.

r) It might not seem like it, but I'm different from the way I write.
That is: very human.
Although "human" is a compliment!

n) Sorry for the list, it seems like a cold post, but it isn't.

I gather information on everything that interests me. My interests change over time.

I have a lot of flaws!
s) Italy was something else: we lost an important war.
We can never evolve from there.
We invented many useful things, but everything is taken away from us by those who won that war.

*****We would do the exact same things, we're certainly not better, eh?

Welcome back to Wrong Planet!

welcome back...I've also got a brand new shiny moniker on this forum too!
But seems glory days of wrong planet have passed. threads with 1000s of views pre-the great slow down now only get 10-20 views.

I feel like "nearly Headless Nick" hanging out in the empty coridoors of Hogwarts with a small band of headless horsemen.

(Grazie mille!)

Thank you!

Your feedback is very helpful to me.

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*Even with my alexithymia and some communication deficits, I always appreciate your presence.

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Yes, it does get few views, but the importance of a forum like this is enormous.
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The replies are fun!

*Cyber​​Dora's reply is imaginative:-"I feel like "nearly Headless Nick" hanging out in the empty coridoors of Hogwarts with a small band of headless horsemen."
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Great!


I miss fantasy.

I've worked on my imagination by reading and visualizing anything that could increase it.

I'd say that in 20 years of trying, I've succeeded!

You wrote :
I miss fantasy.

I've worked on my imagination by reading and visualizing anything that could increase it.

I'd say that in 20 years of trying, I've succeeded!

Congradulations on your success !

On the topic of imagination , In the USA . We have Cons: that is we have conventions,gatherings of people with similiar interest . In a somewhat public venue . They are almost like miniature festivals , regarding people with more fantasy type but generic , Events , Ones I refer to ,are the ones that have a common Science Fiction Theme .Generally based on
Sci Fi media , either written ( literary) or Audio visual type as in Star Trek or , many other idealizations of Translations from written word to Video media . But the subject matter of these Cons( Conventions) can vary ,now there are even Anime Cons , Many years back when I was alittle healthier . I enjoyed attending these events. In the sea of people in costume , It felt like an acknowledgement of certain people whom appreciated that medias Art Form. And amongst those people You could blend in so much that being odd, in your common interest at the Con . That the odd was normal
or exceptional. In any one person given costume.And People might even note that ,Perhaps if your depiction of any given known character ( imaginary) of
Any of those media representations of those characters . People even would take pictures of each other to keep as memories, or something that stimulated their imaginations. Many vendors would set up booths at the Cons selling things / accoutramonts , that many apply to any particular Movie/ Media . Take away food for sale. Even T shirts with graphic designs representing various genres of more classic media, As a Aspie , it was extremely draining , but these events attract more of the Autistic community than the NT community . And it felt like masking was the normal thing to do ,to portray the character of the imaginary media person .You are trying to emulate. Building your characters costume was a welcome distraction ,as I would wait for the Con to come to town. Generally in a very very large community hall or similiar venue.People may come to these events from across a very large part of the Country.. Always very well attended, usually indoors , people came regardless of the weather it seemed . Even the individual whom actually played a role in the actual production of these Media genres,Actors/ Actresses .To sign autographs and have their pictures taken. Various types of events occur at these Conventions Costume contests . It all seemed like a great homage to these types of imaginary media genres and their writers and producers,And Actors . Great Event ,kinda fun being amongst many with a specific interest in the same Imaginary type of Genre.

Yes, Jakki, they organize in Italy too.
I'd have a hard time going there.
But I was in a national radio group that continued science fiction stories started by others online.
At school, after the 8th grade, I was able to write comics and draw them.
Once I got a 9.5 (10 was the maximum).
They were logical in my case, but they worked.

As a hikikomori, I also did these things, as well as thinking about patents for useful things.
I watched Formula 1 and thought about what could be improved.
Once I thought about a tire that came off a speeding car, I thought of a solution.
I proposed it, they thanked me, but it was already in their ideas.
I wrote to a major racing team.
I also thought of other ideas.
I see many of them in stores today: so they weren't that silly.
*Only the materials change.
Because some are made of silicone or fiberglass or even super light.
The material doesn't matter, the idea is what counts.
I remember Steve Jobs when the engineers told him there was no way to reduce the space in the new iPhone. I think Steve took it and threw it into an aquarium.
You could see bubbles coming out.
So there was room indeed.
No one said a word:
He greeted them and said, "Good job!"
Super Steve.
In Italy, the things you wrote about are events that work very well.

I'd have a hard time going there.


During my Hikikomori period, I also became interested in philosophy.
Some geniuses.
Not all.
Then, perhaps something of them remained in my mind.
I once quoted Feuerbach.
An Asperger's patient wrote to me publicly: "I love those who quote Feuerbach!"
So you're not far from one of my former passions.
Imagination: I remember being asked a strange question in school. I was little, but I understood mental translations in 3D.
I had seen a video by Ian Emes (for Pink Floyd).

A genius left us two years ago.

But also other cartoonists for The Wall. I think Gerald Scarfe.

I think = I'm going from memory.
Visual

Now my depression keeps me away from so many things.
Sometimes I find quick solutions to things that others struggle with.

post sciptum: I still have a lot of deficits.
Even though art history was mandatory in Italy for three years, I'm passionate about museums.
I have several to name, but it would take too long!

You sound as if you are very well experienced . Would have like to visited more museums when I was younger.
I Did pick up some appreciation of Album cover and Sci fi. cover artwork. Yes ,I am really not much for crowds of , all kinds . Those attempts as I got older ,at the Cons, usually had assistance when I went, And sometimes it would take me a week to recover .