This is going to sound sad and pathetic, but here goes nothing.
Today I just recieved a text on my phone from my doctor's, it seems automated. It's about a wellbeing walk at a nearby trail, and it's just letting people know when and where, and there's an email attached to ask further questions.
I haven't been outside my home properly since I was probably fifteen or so. The very idea of talking to people scares me to hell. Honestly, even just thinking about the possibilities of this walk has me feeling nauseous. But at this point I have nothing left; I have no one I can rely on, my options are dwindling, even my reasons for living are fraying at this point. Things I try never seem to work out, so there's no guarantee that this won't mess up either, but I guess I just wanted someone's thoughts on this whole thing.
Sorry for sounding so pathetic.